Sacrifice – A Long lasting desire (OS)

Hy guys.. This is my new try..And my first OS. And this is a kind of dark too..

Whatever a person do to their beloved ,there will be always a reward or happiness for it. Even mistakes have a second chance to recover. Life is all about moving on and time heals all wounds. But time will pass away and it can’t be attained back. Every act we do has both positive and negative impact in life. The time once lost is lost forever. Sometimes,there will be no second chance ever. Wish to speak to someone,speak at once; need to say something or do something, do it immediately. May be the time for which we wait, could never come…

The evening breeze felt fresh. She stepped out in the land. It felt like a child start walking in the feet for first time. It’s been months, oh no it’s been years since seeing the world she thought. But still, she didn’t saw her world , her mean universe yet. She walked out as fast as she can as though a child walking out of school to see her mother after the first day of school.. But where she is going, don’t know and where she’s right now, don’t know.. After a few minutes of walking, a board welcomed her.. So she get to know where she is ,Haryana. But still it’s so far from her house they said. She stopped in her track. Who they are? Why they left her now? She asked to herself. Buy now she didn’t care about those. Her only need is meeting him. But where will she meet him? She saw another board route, Mumbai.. Yeah her journey will be there. But how will she go. Nothing can happen without money she know. She dearly needed now. But she has nothing else with her apart from the simple saree she wear, a blanket which she covers herself from cold which also became her best friend these days and mangalsutra which remain his love for her that mean a lot. She saw her mangalsutra, ” Keep it with yourself, this will surely needed for you one day ” he said someday. And yes, that became true she thought. She saw a pawn jewel shop some distance away and she stand before that holding her mangalsutra. Yes, she didn’t wish to sell it there. It reminds her of him. Her love. Her life. His love which remained unrequited.. But how will she sell there which remind his presence with her in these years. But nothing mattered anymore now since she gonna see him in flesh and blood. His memories or his reminder doesn’t matter to her anymore than seeing him with her eyes and feeling him with her heart..
She walked towards the shop with a determation.

After sometime, she saw herself seating in a train from haryana to mumbai. There was a smile in her face. A desire, a hope, a life in her that she is going to see her love after ages.. But still somewhere in her heart a unknown fear arupt her. She sat near the window where the journey started to attain her love. And she viewed the place. It still remained a beautiful place. But she just need her universe where her real beauty lies in. The air blows in her face. It washed her soul with a refreshing and a new life. She closed her eyes and just a face, love, memory floats in her soul..He changed her life. No he gave her a life. RANVEER, the only name she say in these years and the destination of her life. Thinking of him still create glitters of butterfly in her stomach. She felt happy. But somewhere in corner of her, it’s still lifeless..

I,Ishani Ranveer Vaghela. The name that changed her life. Yes, my life started when I realized his love for me. At that time, I really thought do I really deserve him? And I made sure from that moment whatever I do, that will be connected to him and that makes me worth him. Yes. Whatever I do, that’s worth him even if it means dieing for him. Our story started long before. I saw him in my 8 years and there starts my real life. He is my best friend.. From the moment he came in my life, he made me smile, he made me live. He made my every day worth with beautiful memories.. But our life changed and took a different path. The life without him by my side has nothing more than pain. But soon our friendship changed into a beautiful love.. For him, his love is enough for both. But when I realized his love, I know the real meaning of that. In his love, every day, every moment felt beautiful to live with. But again our life took a great turn, we united after long painful seperation. Again we lived in the ocean of love,But again our fate changed in the name of a disease. I left from his life to give him a new life. In these past years, I didn’t met him. I was kept in a room nearly jail, where only sun and moon helped me count my days. I got to know he recovered in the next 6months. I tried to run away from the place twice but in vein.

In these past years, only his memories made me live my life. And my life stick only with a desire, I have to see him one day before my death. I have to see him living a good life. And that’s enough to die the last breath. Years passed with this single desire of seeing him someday. Now after these long years I gonna meet him. My soul, my destination, my life, my Ranveer..
Love is not attaining someone or living with each other. It’s living for each other and dieng for the other. There will be no lie in love only truth will be there. But I lied him and showed my hatred to give him a happy life.
And that’s why ranveer, I leave you. But now I will say you, Meri ashiqui sirf tum se hi Ranveer.

She took a deep breathe and opened her eyes. How the time passed, she didn’t know. But will she know how many hours passed when she is thinking about him or her love. After a long journey, she stepped in the land of Mumbai.

6 years passed in your memories. But now, when I am nearing you, even a second seems to go so slow.

She saw the Mumbai which changed a lot in this years. But still it’s essence remained same. She walked towards her final destination, to the mansion where her life started and will end, to him, her ranveer.

She saw the mansion not changed. It just remained as it is when she left. How will he be now? Where will he be now? In home or office? She knows he really loved his work and also she was proud of his hardwork and success.. He will be same and happy and married. Even have kids.. She smiled thinking. Will he accept her now? Or will push her out? How will she face him or his family now? Her smiled ceazed at the thought of HIS FAMILY..

If he is happy, that will make her happy. If he was happy with his new life with someone, then she will happily leave him forever. He should be happy and alive. That’s what she wants… Seeing him from distance, she will live her last life.

She stepped her feet into the mansion. She felt like she was coming there for first time with her mom. Whenever she leave him, she will lose someone in her life. And that’s why she lost her mom and dad. But when he is with her and for her, she has no pain in her. He always remained as a mother, father, friend, love and everything of her life. As soon as she stepped in,she found the hall empty until a giggle of two kids heared. Ishani looked in the direction of the kids. A cute girl and a boy of 3-4 years old were running and were playing. She immediately had a smile in her face. They will be the kids of ranveer, she thought. When she was about to walk towards them, the sight in the wall stopped her.

She was ceased in the place looking at the picture. Tears fall down her cheeks. She ran towards the photo, Baa.. She cried thinking of her. As she was seeing Baa’s photo, a voice distracted her… ‘Bhabhi…’
She turned to look at Parul. Parul was looked shocked. Ishani went near her: Parul..
Parul(with shocked tone): Bhabhi… Tum.. here..how..
She was stammering at the sight of her bhabhi after these years..
Parul, baa? What happened to her? she asked looking at the image hanging in the wall and her. Yet no reply came from parul.
Where are others parul? Kaka,kaki,Disha,manas,devarsh, krisha? Where are them? How are you? How come you here? When you came back with krish? And Where is Ranveer? Ishani asked her final question with a unconditional desire to see him..
But parul seemed quite and she just moved from there towards stairs.. Ishani looked at her dumb, thinking of her unanswered questions.. She tried moving behind parul until something stopped him. Her breath ceased at the sight before her. Her sight on him. Her heartbeat ceased to breath at his sight, even tears cease to flow from her eyes…

She looked at him till parul came back and handed over a diary..
She looked at the diary and opened.

Hy Ishani,
How are you? I hope you are good. I don’t know will you ever read this in your life or will this remain my untold journey of my life..
I am Ranveer Vaghela, RV to the World of bussiness, your Ranveer. When I am 9 years and stepped into this mansion for the first time,I saw you Ishani. People say one’s life starts when he comes to the world. But my life truly started when I first saw you. And from that moment to now where I stand now, whatever I do, that is related to you. My smile,my tears,my pain, my life everything is related to you. You are my friend,my love, my life. I don’t know why you left me still. I tried to hate you. Though your lips uttered your hate, your eyes still showed your love for me. How will I hate you or forget you and move on. Maybe this is my illusion that you loved me. But I love you from the moment I saw you Ishani. I didn’t expect you to reciprocate my love. My love is enough for both of us. Us? I was still in the dilemma of the word. I thought you are sacrificing your life for me again. But is that true or just my hope.
It’s been 5 and half years now, I was still searching for you. My search get parul back and she is happy with her new life and even she got a kid. And everyone are happy now. Devarsh became responsible now and krisha have a cute little girl. Krish,disha and manas was happily settled in USA. But baa left us 2 years back. She was the only support for me to defend you from everyone questioning you. But now, I am alone searching you. Maa and baba was still upset thinking of me. I fulfilled all my responsibilities and the wishes of our family. But I can’t fulfill theirs.They asked me to live happily married? Happily married? Where will I search for happy without you in it.
My life stopped the moment you left me. I accept my defeat now Ishani. I lived in the hope to get you back. HOPE. That’s what make us live our life. That end only with death. And now, I feel the hope dieing with me. Hope to see you back. Hope to live with you. Hope to cherish our childhood memories. My days are in count now. But I was not afraid of the death that is nearing me. I was afraid of the days that gonna pass without you. Will I meet you one last time Ishani? Why the time could have went back when you are with me, even this death would be beautiful in your love. I would leave my last beat with you and your love by my side. But now when you are far from me, even this life and death didn’t seem more different than the hell.
If you are reading this, you remember me and came to see me. Hope you are living a happy life as you wish. The time when we were happy together would have ceased. Only time separate us Ishani. Everytime my heart beat that’s because of you. Now, in the last stage of my life, my heart beats only for you. From the moment I saw you and till the moment my heart beats, I will say, Meri aashiqui sirf tum se hi Ishani….

With love,
Ranveer..

She was ceased. The book fell down from her hand as she looked at ranveer, only the last reminder of him hanged there. She felt her whole life dark. “The moment you leave , my life stops.” His words echoed in her ears.
She thought he would be happy living his new life. But she forgot where his happiness would be? She thought he will recover and live ever after. But she didn’t thought about his life ever after. She looked at him lifeless hanging in the wall one last time.
An accident killed him physically. But as soon as he get well, Anticipatory and delayed terminal grief killed him. Does it or her?
The grief is due to her.. The pain he undergo emotionally is due to her. That made him physically dead.. She made him die…

Only onething flows in her soul, if she would have been with him, they both would have had some more happy moments together and if death had to get their lives, they would face it with their love and accept it happily. Her eyes failed to move from his sight. Her mind echoed his words continuously. .. Her heart raised its beat. The reason why they left her now was cleared. The reason why her heart pumped faster few months before and why he smiled and visited her in dream was answered.

6years in the name of sacrifice for him did no good than let them live a painful death everyday apart from each other. Her reason why She lived in the past 6years; The hope of seeing him one fine day. The hope that could only end in the death of the person.. She felt her whole universe shut blank. Her mind showed her full journey of life with Ranveer in it. There is no life without him. She is nothing without him she know. She lost her life and dead the moment she moved away from him. Time could move on, but she can’t. Her eyes lost its color than black. Her everysoul felt overwhelming pain. She could feel him, see him smile, live all her life with him again within herself until she lost her balance and fell in the floor. Only a word ,Bhabhii…was heared and felt someone trying to hold her… then no more..

Thank you everyone for reading and will be waiting for your comments..

Keep Smiling and take care…

14 comments

  1. Neelam

    It was as nice Maya your os was soooooo emotional you explained each and every emotion and feelings very gracefully your writing skill is very good like a poet I have no words to express your talent it was really really awesome 😊

    • Maya-Shelly

      |Author

      Thank you neelam.. Glad you found it emotional. Not that much writer and all dr. I tried my best. Thanks for your comment dr. It’s really precious to me. Love you a lot dr
      Keep smiling and take care☺

  2. luv ishveer to the core of my heart

    There are really no words right now to say how am i feeling right now. There is nothing i could say that will describe ur beautiful yet hearttouching os. It has taken me to another world and tears are just waiting to flow from my eyes. U have really done a great job and explained each bit of it: their emotions, their pain and the most imp. the love that they hold for eachother and yes life sometimes doesnt give u a second chance and also while this track was going on in the show i remember the thought that came in my mind was why ishani does this type of sacrifices in which they both have to suffer i understand she does it all for ranveer for him to live happily but why cant she understand that without ishani, ranveer cant exist and without her ranveer can never be happy bcoz ishani is his everything his love, his life, his heart, his soul and if this all are away from him then how will he live happily and what are the use of her sacrifices. If only she had understood that she is his life! Ranveer always used to say that his life begin when he saw her the first time. I would have been happy that atleast this would be the ending of matsh i know it would be dark but atleast it will be complete story and a great way to end the beautiful story which the audience would have remembered for a really long time. But never mind what the show had shown and taught us will always be remembered and will be there in our hearts forever bcoz their love was one of a kind started with childhood friendship and their love, care for eachother still touches my heart. Maya this is a great piece of ur writing loved every bit of it, loved the words u have used in it from matsh they are unforgetable, u have used their real character and the track from the show that itself makes it great and it really touched my heart, u r a great writer and this is ur first step but really a great, wonderful and amazing one. i wish u all the best and in the future i m waiting to read ur books but also dont forget to write a book on ishveer’s eternal and unconditional love for eachother and i also wish u to write many more os, i will be glad to read it. Sorry for a long comment i couldnt stop my hands from writing and i wish i could have given u a better review but i m really bad at it. bcoz u deserve so much appreciation for the great idea of starting this os from in between nirbhays track, nobody thought it can be started from there and can be ended so greatly.WELL DONE

    • Maya-Shelly

      |Author

      Hy dr. First of all thanks a lot for your lovely comment. So glad you liked this Os this much and it made you feel like in another world.
      Happy its so heart touching to you. Thank you dr. Happy I could bring all the emotions here and yeah of course, Matsh is all about emotions ryt. Yes life sometimes won’t give a second chance and that’s what happened here.
      Yeah, I too had a thought during that track when ishani sacrifices for him. She could have chose some other thing. She had more opportunities, when she went to jail for Chirag’s case, she would have asked him whether he killed him. Also during nirbhay track, she could have made ranveer know. She did everything, spoken with him, also written letters, but why can’t she say him about this. Those sacrifices only gave pain to both. I really hate those sacrifice. Yeah, for ranveer, ishani is everything. Yet, ishani never understood this in the show. I also thought the same dr. The loss will always be special. Yeah, if we had this on show, that will be in our heart forever. Dark stories will remain a special place in our heart. But too matsh will remain in our heart forever since their story is something different. Yeah, their friendship, love, emotions, nothing will lose from our heart. Ishveer will remain forever. Also we get to know more from them.
      Thanks dr. Happy you loved this. Yeah those words and dialogue are unforgettable only. Glad to read those words from you dr. Hope I written thia well. Glad I took my first step good. Thanks a lot dr and your comment made me write good. Oh no dr. I didn’t think I was that good writer. But will try and improve myself in writing. And ofcourse , If I ever write, I will surely write a book on ishveer and their eternal love. But surely, a book cannot describe their love which is connected by soul.
      Yeah, will try writing more a and whatever I write, I will be waitin g for your comment ever. And no dr. I really loved your comment. Your review was really great and this motivate me as well. Your review was something special to me dr. Thanks a lot. Really your comment made me emotional too. And yeah, from nirbhay track not more written and that’s why I thought to do it. Thank you so much. I was really blessed to see your review. Take care

  3. Nandana

    |Registered Member

    NICE OS DI I REALLY LIKED IT IT IS VERY TOUCHING BAD A SAD ONE . ACTUALLY NO WORDS TO SAY NOW I REALLY LIKED . NOW I AM WRITING THIS MUCH ONLY AS NOW I AM STUDYING FOR EXAMS SO IN BETWEEN I AM COMMENTING SO THERE WILL BE AN ANOTHER COMMENT OF MINE EXPLAINING THE DIALOGS AND SCENES I REALLY LIKED VERY AS NOW I DON’T HAVE TIME TO WRITE THAT AS I REALLY LIKED ALL THE PART AND THE DIALOGS SO BYE DI TAKE CARE .

    • Maya-Shelly

      |Author

      Yeah chotti. Glad you liked it. Happy you liked it though its a sad OS. Oh its ok dr. Do well your exams. All the best for it. Do review more in detail when you get time. Yes I will be waiting for your comments on the scene and dialogues as well. Glad you liked all the parts . ok dr. Bye take care and keep smiling dr.

  4. Jasminerahul

    |Registered Member

    I just started nirbhay track now in uyirin uyire n suddenly an os from you on this track.I am surprised. I also felt sad when ishani became a cage bird.here she escaped to meet ranveer.how did she escape from the jail?I am happy that unlike the show here ranveer has still hope that his ishani is not wrong n she loves him.he searched for her.but got depressed.depression and accident killed him.poor ishani who sacrificed everything and made others hate her couldn’t even get to see ranveer.though she did it for ranveer’s happiness he lost everything. Very sad.the letter he wrote for her before death was touchy.in d show though I waited to see where parul went with the baby they didn’t show it at all.here you showed it.parul returned but manas disha left for US with him as disha wished. Parul got married n have a kid too.sad that parul didn’t get Krishna.she deserved Krishna more than disha.good that devarsh became responsible. Sad that baa died.what happened to kailesh amba? Very emotional touchy tragedy

    • Maya-Shelly

      |Author

      Hy Jasmine. Yeah, nirbhay track started in urave uyire now and I did this OS same time. Yeah, when she is in cage it’s sad only. Here, she tried to escape but finally released. They themselves let her go. You know the reason in the story itself. Yeah, ranveer had hope and searched for her. But his depression and accident killed him. Yes, ishani did everything but can’t see ranveer once. That’s what I made it dr. I wish to see that in story. Y she did such sacrifice rather saying him about it. Ranveer would’ve given her a better idea than her stupid act. Glad you found his letter sad and emotional. Oh s. In show, they didn’t show where parul went and that’s y I thought to give it here. Parul was married and had a kid of her own and disha, manas with Krish went to US. I agree that parul deserve krish more than disha. I too wished Krish should be with parul. But, I hope parul deserve more than this. She deserve more beautiful and happy life since she is really too good and lovely. And that’s y I made it like this. And krish have manas for loving him and will always remember parul na. Devarsh became responsible. Really I missed that in show. Y he suddenly changed in the show from good to bad is atill a mystery. Yes. Baa died. It happens with age ryt. Also she lost her two grandchildren happiness. Amba and kailash. I really forgot to write about them in letter. They became week and their son’s death itself made them powerless and lifeless. Very glad you like this emotional tragedy. Thanks a lot dr for your detailed review..

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