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While returning home Laksh met me in the way. He informed me – “Sanskar bhaiya bhabhi ko le aaya hu”.
I became surprised by this and asked him- “ did they said anything about me?”I don’t know but there was a softness or calmness in my voice which I have lost nowadays.
“yup, this was the thing. They all were praising you.
“Praising me” I was shocked. I asked being unsure “ you might be confused. They may be taunting me and you took it as praising.”
“Are am I a child that I will not understand difference between taunt and praise.”Laksh
“OK tell me in detail what they were saying.” I asked him restlessly.
“no I didn’t talk much to them. They were just casually asking-how much study is left and blab la. Haa they didn’t liked that you didn’t come for taking her for the first time. I made them understand that you are very busy nowadays.”saying this he went away.
I was still lost in my thoughts. The storm of anxiety which have erupt in me couldn’t get away so easily. A strong feeling to just go to her and ask did you really didn’t say anything bad about me! At that moment I felt so bad about my behavior to her! Now if some will ask me that why didn’t talk to your wife just because she didn’t become a shrugged bag on bed on the wedding night? Or because you thought her as a hindrance in your high dreams? I don’t have any answer to all these question.
Actually the problem is that I have always been impulsive. The moment I see something , I will make all thought about it without knowing the truth. I should quickly get free from this habit or I will lose many things.
I was feeling so awkward while going home today but then too I was feeling that the sadness which have engrossed me is not present today. I still couldn’t believe that she didn’t said anything about me. Nope , she must have said anything about me. But if something like this would have happened then they must have said it some way or another. Now I was feeling shame on my foolishness that I didn’t saw her face too the way I wanted. Now how I will face her when she will come in front of me? What was the need of that foolishness of not talking? I was wishing that heaviness of all my mistakes could be make lighter in some way. I was wondering how am I feeling so fresh , so light and so happy today.
I was so lost in my thought that I didn’t notice that I reached home. As soon as I entered Uttara shouted-“bhaiya bhabhi aa gayi hai.”
“aacha” I said and headed towards my room not wanting them to know that I knew about her arrival.
From open doors I could see her suitcase. My heart jumped. There was excitement to know what are new things in my room. I was satisfied that as she no other place she has to live in my room. Now sooner or later she has to talk to me. There was a stole on the hook which she must have wore in the way. And a bamboo basket beside her suitcase containing things for journey. There was a ‘soloni’ ( a housemaker magazine ) on the side table. I silently took it and opened it. On the first page it was written RAGINI in a very decent hand writing. A thought came in my mind to write my name beside her but I didn’t did it thinking what she will think.
RECAP – A NEW START OR SOMETHING ELSE.
AGAIN A SINCERE APOLOGY