Hello everyone.. Iam back with another episode..
It might be boring.. No conversations.. .
I don’t know what’s going on with me.. Seeing Ragini with that Arjun is irritating me.. Their closenes burns me… I don’t love Ragini.. She is just my friend.. Then Y am being insecure about her relationship.. I just don’t get it.. I never felt like this.. When Swara was with sanskar I was angry but not like this.. Maybe then Ragini was with me.. She never let me alone to ponder about all those thoughts.. She really did care for me. Now am feeling lonely… As if no one is there for me.. Earlier she was with me always whatever I said or did.. How much I have hurted her. She did mistakes but all that was for me. My love… I made her like that. I broke alliance with her twice.. Used her for my personal benefit.. I ignored her and went behind her sister only because she is traditional.. What a Naive reason.. I was only attracted to Swara because she was modern as I wanted.. And I didn’t accept Ragini because I found her boring.. What a stupid iam. Then also I enjoyed being with Ragini than Swara.. If I had fallen for Ragini then all these wouldn’t hve happened. I am feeling bad when I see Ragini with Arjun even though i dont love her.. I felt to broke his hand when he touched her.. What must’ve Ragini gone through when she saw me with Swara then. Oh god.. Ragini loved me very much and infront of her I romanced with her sister.. How I could I be so insensitive.. How can I blame Ragini for her deeds.. anyone in one her place would be shattered to see their love romancing with their sibling.. Iam sorry Ragini.. Iam sorry.. I have hurted you a lot.. First Swara. Then that BL**dy kavya.. How much I have hurted you. I will never ever hurt you.. One thing I don’t understand is why am thinking about her 24*7??? Iam not able to think about anything else.. Ragini…. Why is she bothering me so much? Is it normal to care for a friend to this extent??? Whatever I want to keep an eye on Arjun.. What if he is not right for Ragini.. Everyone is all praise for him but I won’t trust him sso easily..
Ragini…. Never seen such a serene beauty. Whatever she did in her past was only because of her circumstances.. She is still feeling guilty for that.. I must make her forget her past.. I must bring smile back into her eyes. Her lips may smile abut her eyes doesnt. It’s filled with pain.. How can someone love another with so much passion.. That guy broke her alliance twice.. Cheated her… still she loves him.. She is impossible.. What an intense love.. How stupid is he to ignore such pure love.. I wwish I had met her before all this.. I wish I was her first love.. I wish she love me with that intensity.. Then I would be the luckiest person in the world.. What have you done to me Ragini.. I never knew what love felt like.. Is this feeling called love.. I can’t stop thinking about. Your eyes.. Smile. Voice .. Everything is making me crazy.. I just met you and I lost myself.. May be live at first sight. I promise you that I will always be with you whatever may be the situation. I just want your happiness. Your smile makes me happy.. I wishes you feel the same for me but am not so lucky.. You loves someone else.. Will you b able to move on with me Ragini?? Whatever it may be.. I Love You Ragini.. You just stole my heart with your innocence.. I can do anything for your happiness.. Anything… I will wait to infinity for you to accept me.. I just want yoto be with me.. Even as a friend am happy..
What is going on in my life.. Within few weeks my life turned upside down.. What I dreamt of and what is happening… I loved laksh.. And i always will. What have you done to me laksh.. You are not perfect.. You are impulsive. Childish.. Confused.. But I love you the way you are.. But you are never meant for me.. I took me so much time to realise it.. If I had realised it earlier everyone would have been happy now.. You played with emotions.. Not once but n times.. But still am not able to hate you.. I should have hated you by now but my love for you is stronger than any hatredness in this world.. Why are you not understanding my love laksh… Can’t you feel it.. I know that my love for you is not so week.. You think that I don’t love you anymore. Whereas I have written my whole life in your name.. But there is no chance for us.. Laksh you dont deserve my love. You want me to move on.. Iam moving on.. Leaving all my past. Arjun..
He is a nice guy.. I like him.. But as a good friend.. He makes me feel comfortable.. He never asks me about my past.. He doesn’t mention laksh.. He is not prejudiced.. He doesn’t judge ne.. He asked me to pursue my career.. That moment I understood Daadi is right this time.. She has chosen the right guy. He will never force me into any thing. He will give me time to move on. But am I doing right with him?? Will i ever be able to give him laksh’s place in my heart.. How can I destroy his life. He deserves love.. But I will never be able to give him his rights… My soul, heart, body… everything was for laksh and he took everything from me.. How can I share it with someone else.. Arjun seems to be a nice guy.. May be he will understand.. But how long will he bear me.. May b i will forget laksh by time.. And may b I wil accept Arjun as my partner. But it will take long time.. Will Arjun Abe able to wait??He said he won’t force.. and he will give me time.. If he can consider my feelings I should also.. I will try my best to forget laksh and move on with you. But for the time being we can be good friends… Knowing each other .. Understanding each other… God knows what he has kept for us in future..
I know this is a boring episode.. I just wanted readers to understand each character’s inner feeling.. What they are going through and what are their perspective about each other..
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Credit to: Nitu