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From now onwards I will post my fan fiction wid my real name..
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Precap- kavita’s pov…
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*11th day of agreement *
It’s lovely morning.
Birds r chirping..
D sun rays falling on my face disturbed my sleep..
I opened my eyes.. I found dat my head is in sanskar’s lap.. And he is sleeping in seating position only.. His little finger and my little finger entwined into each other. After looking at his face, I felt like he was crying whole night. Without disturbing him(not taking my little finger out from his grip ) I sat in front of him . I knw dat I m d reason behind his tears. And I gave peck on his eyelashes..I dnt knw wht I felt but I hugged him.. And buried my face into his chest and slept in dat position only..
I knw swara still loves me. So whn i felt dat she is going to wake up.. I closed my eyes.. I wanna to see her reaction.. I wanna see real swara.. Whn she kissed me on eyelashes I wanna kiss her on lips that with full of emotions,( d fear of losing her and wid full of love).. But somehow I controlled my feelings.. Whn she hugged me back, I felt too good.. She slept in dat position only.. (How can she sleep in few minutes? Dis is mystery for me) I hold her tightly in my arms..actually its more like squeezing..But that’s OK na?I kept my chin on her shoulder.. Thinking abt incidents.. If she loves me dis much den y is she showing dat she dnt care abt me? I will ask her today only.. Whatever may happen but I will ask her d reason..
After some time,
She woke up..
When she found dat I m awake.. She moved away for me..
Swara – I m sry .. I dnt knw how did i sleep like dis .
She was going away from me.. So I held her hand tightly .. And i pulled her towards me.
She was shocked by my behavior.
She was yelling at me, “leave my hand sanskar.. It’s hurting”
I asked her, ” 1st tell me.. Do u care abt me?”
She said firmly, “no! I dnt care .. Now leave my hand” and she jerked her hand from my grip..
I asked her in fake anger”tell me! Wht were u doing at hospital? I knw everything but I wanna listen dis from u”. Actually I dnt knw anything but I said dat I knw everything coz if she comes to knew dat i dnt knw any thing she won’t tell me anything..
Her face expressions changed after listening dis..
She was asking me in sad tone, “so u came to knw dat I m suffering from blood cancer”
1stly I felt dat I heard something wrong.so asked her again to confirm.. She said it again.
And I felt like my legs r weaken.d whole world around me is revolving. And I m going to fall at any time. Thud! I crashed wid floor..
Swara sat in front of me..
Tears are in her eyes..
She shook me.. She cupped my face..
She asked innocently,” u told na u knw d reason so I thought dat u enquired in hospital abt me.. Dnt u knw dis?.”
I shook my head in big no.
I hugged her. I tightened my grip on her .. Tears r rolling continuously from my eyes..
I knw now swara needs support. I hv to be strong.. But I cnt..
And here is swara is treating me like child just like I m suffering from blood cancer and she is ok.. She is behaving like strong.. But I knw she is broken from inside..she wiped my tears
So trying to control my tears , I hold her shoulders tightly and asked her, “from whn swara? Why did u hide dis big thing from u? Dnt u trust on ur sanskar? Dnt u wanna tell me dis? Do u wanna suffer alone ? Wht do u think abt urself ? Tell me swara!”
She said( trying to compose herself) ,”sanskar I dnt wanna give u pain coz of me.. Dats y I didn’t told u abt dis.”
I asked her angrily, ” so u wanna bear dis alone. U forgot vows dat we took during our marriage? We said dat we will share everything.. We shared everything till today. Den who gave u right to bear dis pain alone? U hv to share dis wid me.. ”
After listening dis, she hugged me tightly. I hugged her back.. She told me everything.. Dat d day she told me she wanna tell me something, and come home early. Dat day she thought dat she is pregnant but after meeting to doctor she came to knw dat she was suffering from blood cancer..
I asked her, “is dat d reason , behind not coming to meet me whn I was in coma?”
She said dat, “I will tell u.. But will u give me something ?”
I wanna give her everything..all happiness.. Coz from my accident I hv given only one thing to her.. And dat was pain..
She said,” plz marry wid kavita after my death”
Listening dis words… I felt like someone has stabbed knife in my heart.. Her death.. I can’t imagine dis..
I placed my palm on her mouth to shut her from saying such bad things..
I said in determined voice, “who said dat u r going to die. Dnt say dis rubbish things.Nothing is going to happen with u. Whn I m with u, everything will be fine.. Do u believe me?”
She nodded.. She moved my hand from her mouth and asked me, “but sanskar?”
I asked her, ” if anything happens to me den will u move on ur life?”
She shook her head and said -“no sanskar! How can I?”
I told her dat ,”den how can u expect dis from me?”
Swara- “for ur happiness!and u said dat u will give me if I ask for something”
I hugged her tightly and said ,” my happiness lies in urs. And dnt do dis again. We will go to d expert doctors.. And nothing is gonna happen u.. Believe me.. I will make everything correct.. Just give me one chance. And till ur treatment I m not going to leave for u 1sec. I will be with u as ur shadow. And now dnt utter abt any word dat u r suffering from dis and all.. U r ok.. U r not suffering from anything.. ”
She said silently , ” sanskar ! I wanna live our love story again”
I cupped her face, and kissed her on her forehead, and said ,”we will”..
After looking at our condition , suddenly she laughed.. And said, “sanskar! From morning we r crying.. I think we will finish all d tears today only”
Definitely she knw how to make me calm..
She told me to be ready.. She will prepare breakfast n lunch..
I told her ,”dnt make anything! We will hv it at restaurant”
She nodded ..
Meanwhile I called to manager and told him dat, I won’t able to come till few days..I told him to manage somehow. And if der is any emergency den only call me..
I dnt wanna spend any second without her..
I m just feeling guilty abt my behavior.. I hv given her pain.. Too much pain.. And now I wanna correct all things..
I m regretting abt my behavior..
I called doctor and booked appointment of tomorrow..
I will go to any extent to make her fine .
Coz if anything happens to her den I won’t able to live..
I become ready to go to restaurant..
I m waiting for her outside..
Whn she came , I showed her watch.. While making sad face..
I asked her, “I m ur senior na! And i m waiting for u.. Actually u hv to w8 for me na?”
Swara holding her ears said dat, “sanskar .. I m living in hostel na!and warden didn’t allowed to come out from hostel”
I recalled our moments..
I always hv to wait for her..
And her reason is same all time..
We both laughed recalling dat..
We took each others hand and headed towards restaurant..
After knowing abt blood cancer , sanskar is taking care of me like small kid.. He was wid me every time.. Even at restaurant whn I wanna go into washroom.. He stood outside of ladies washroom.. Its embarrassing na..
But now I m feeling like dat nothing is gonna bad with me..
Coz whn my love sanskar is wid me everything will be fine..
We enjoyed today a lot..
We had our lunch and dinner at hotel only..
After coming to home , we both slept while hugging to each other .
Even if death comes to me, den i will be happy.. Coz dying in his arms ….
I love him.. Actually he loves me too much..
Precap- swasan @ hospital…
Sry guyz ..
I knw my writing skills r not good..
Love u all .