NOISE OF THE PAST( THE CHOICE) CHAPTER 8

Hey everyone…long time huh?… Managed to write one chp for u…sorry if i disappointed u…nd plz comment…silent readers …..olz comment….a bit less comments on my last post..so.i really didn’t want to post…but i did…so plz encourage me..love u all..don’t know when d next chp will be up….

CHAPTER-8

Its not that no good things were happening. Its just that things were changing and changing far more quickly than I expected. What I feared more than me losing him, was him losing himself. The Shravan Malhotra whom I met was a guy who could charm anyone with his flirtatious yet innocent nature. But now anger and ego were suppressing those feelings of love and what pained me more was, that I felt I was the cause.
After some months when I got out of my selfish zone, I saw that he loved me, really. As days passed, his constant efforts to win over my heart were making me weaker and weaker. And now as I look back I see that not only he changed but I also transformed into someone who was more emotional, more caring and more sensitive.

Its not like I was not any of these things before but the point is that while I was with him, I started expressing these feelings openly. At first he pampered me, he would come to cheer me with the three magical words when I was upset, wink while I was scolding him and bring a smile on my face or crack a joke while I was crying. He understood me but he never let me understand him. I knew him but I could never understand him cause he never let me. That invisible wall never broke. How much ever I tried but he never opened up. He broke my trust so often that at last very little was left. He didn’t trust me and he didn’t allow me to trust him.

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Trust was all that was needed.
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So I did have a diary. And basically it was meant for him to read because whatever I wrote, he read it. At times, when I wanted to say something to him while I was upset with him, I would give him my diary. This diary had everything that I ever wanted to say. I never mentioned any name in it but he would always understand whom I was talking about. So once while we were sitting with everyone else, I quietly passed him my diary and told him to write something for me. Although people kept peeping, at last he wrote it and I clearly remember the first few lines. It said, ” Hey, You know I love you very much but the problem is that I can’t trust you. You are a ditcher and your past makes me feel insecure. I care for you a lot and I can’t see you in pain. But so much would change if you would just say a yes.”
‘Ditcher’ , the word still echoes in my head. Although afterwards he was sorry about it but I knew just as all times, this time also it was another word to end the argument.

It hurt me and it still does that he failed to understand me. I was wrong to think that he would understand my part of the story. I thought he understood me but he didn’t. Time had made him insecure and blind. He just couldn’t trust me. Why couldn’t he? Even I trusted him even if he broke my trust a thousand times. He was growing increasingly possessive about me especially when I was around Adi. He didn’t trust me and he didn’t believe me and it remained the same till the end.
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26 comments

  1. Fatimagulesarfraz

    |Registered Member

    Hey niyati !!!!!!
    Oh man !!! It was awesome … Thank God u posted it … I really like the story .. great
    Post next part when u will be free 😉
    Take care😊😊

  2. Ruhaani

    Heyya….I’m soo sorry cudn’t really catch u up…ws really busy wid studies! First n fr all THANKYOU♥♥ fr tking out tym frm ur studies fr this post. Story’s getting damn interesting with each epi….n it really mkes me read it again n again n just wait fr the next one. Pls don’t ever stop posting….pls
    I won’t really be able to express it but it’ll hurt me alott.. :'( …..dt wud be my first n last request to you!!
    I’ll desperately wait fr the next one but do post it onli wen u’re completely free frm ur studies. Oh n btw will it be possible fr u to just give me a msg or something when u post ur epi’s cuz uk it won’t really be possible to check fr it every next day…..hope u understand yrr.
    Tke care darling
    Love ya♥♥

    • WeirdSister

      |Author

      Hey ruhaani…
      Thank you so so much dear…!!.
      Nd its totally fine..
      Well..d next update huh?
      I hve hell no idea..umm..btwn 10-15 I guess..!
      Love u too.
      😊

      • Ruhaani

        I don’t really know if u missed it out bt I made a hearty request to u to not stop posting these epis…..pleaseeeee 🙁
        Hope u won’t really mind me asking fr onlyy one favour frm u. We don’t really know each other but darling u hv magic in ur words n trust me it can cause disasters around amongst those who love exploring emotions via reading!
        So pleaseee don’t ever give up on this cuz few comments cannot really judge fr wht u hv within.
        Trust me I cn see *YOU* thru ur words n I just ♥ wht I see 😉

  3. AnShIta

    |Registered Member

    Hey Niyati di!
    Had been badly waiting for your post!!
    Just as it always is, the episode was enchanting!!
    Dunno how you always manage to exceed my expectations!
    Please do try to post as soon as you can!
    Love ya!<3

  4. Rukhsar

    |Registered Member

    Hi niyati i m back…..ok ok stop stop plz don’t throw any thing at me I’ll get hurt….i know u r upset but bachy ki jaan lo ge kya……actually i was busy bcz…..chaddo yarr ki farq painda ha….lets come to point today’s epi was amazing finally the truth is unfolding and we will get to know the real reason behind shraman……and one more thing when i read the line that shravan called sumo ditcher my eyes went big i was literally shocked how can he say that and i also felt the pain sumo has went through…and its all bcz of u….u show each and every emotion so nicely that we can feel that…..

  5. Zainab

    Woah! The way you explain each and everything makes me speechless. This was amazing. Please don’t stop writing this, I beg you. Post the next one ASAP. I can’t wait to read more. Much love xoxo

    • WeirdSister

      |Author

      Thank you sona..
      I thought u would break ur record of commenting on my each nd every post due to ur exams..
      But no..here u r..!
      I feel super happy..
      Love ya..!
      😊

  6. Ariana

    |Registered Member

    Hiiiiiiiiiiii girl
    So I’m commenting after two days I believe but I just wanted to wrap up my assignments before I turn obsessive (uk how madly obsessed I’m with ur ff)
    Now coming to my love…..this is amazing *teary eyes* u r awesome. I love-LOVE ur work. The fact that your writing is sooooooooooo realistic makes my heart melt. Generally ff/serials r very melodramatic nd all fairy-tale sort but urs is a-z true with the world
    Ik I told u this thing a billion time b4 but yet again- the way u portray Sumo’s perspective makes me go awe. The internal conflict is mindblowing
    I really can’t praise much coz as always I’m left speechless
    please post soon nd consider me for commenting late
    post sooooooooooooon coz this slow revelation is killing me
    nd where is Shravan now???? Uhhh pls reveal them soooooooooooon
    love u beyond words
    take care

    • WeirdSister

      |Author

      Hey Ariana..
      This time..I was growing a bit impatient for ur comment..but I knew..u surely will comment…nd here u r..!
      Yeah..I wanted it to be hell realistic..I knew it would be boring at times…but at d end it would atleast not be melodramatic….!
      Well..mystery meets mystery( ur ff nd mine!)…nd at d end there would be a blast…!
      Thank you so much dear..
      Love u too.
      Will try to post soon..though I can’t guarantee..!
      😊

  7. Alina

    |Registered Member

    Awesome episode as always…
    Niyati..as everyone said I am also saying pls don’t dare to think to stop it ff..its an order from your fan Alina😉😉..ok??
    U r an amazing writer..keep it up
    Post next part soon
    Love u

    • WeirdSister

      |Author

      Thank you alina.!!
      I was not thinking to stop it..
      Its just that…I can’t guarantee abt d regularity of my posts..!
      Love u too
      Will try to post soon..
      😊

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