NOISE OF THE PAST( THE CHOICE) CHAPTER 11

Hiiii everyone….!!! I know I am late..but my exams r on…so I didn’t post..sorry..!!
Thank you for bearing with me till now..i guess i will finish this story in 20 chps…more than that would be too much…!!!..So now we r left wid d last 10 chps…so plz plz read nd comment…!
Coming to this chp…I m requesting u..that if possible try to understand the ‘real meaning’…this one is really really imp in d story…so plz manage to read it..
P.S- sorry to whoever’s ff…i didnt comment…!! Okay now enough.. Here it comes..

CHAPTER-11

Getting bored?
Look, there are always two kinds of people- one, who find others’ stories interesting and then there are the second kind who don’t like listening to how it all began and how it went and blaa blaa. They just want to know the ending.
P.S- I am kinda both.

But you see, in my case I just couldn’t have told the ending, because I believe in reasoning. It was really necessary to know that what caused the ending. Ending? The word sounds not so suitable here right? But isn’t every ending a new beginning? At least that is what I believe.
See here lies the umm so called two lines description of my story- ‘ At times love is not enough. Even though you feel that everything is perfect, time and change always come forward to prove, ‘ Perfection doesn’t exist in relationships’.

We spent some beautiful moments together. Really beautiful. I have a box of sweet and bitter memories. Those flying kisses, those winks, those brown eyes, that smile, that time and that ‘ him’ are a part of me now. They can never be separated from me. Never.
No wonder those dreams and flashes right?

There are problems in every relationship. But what if you don’t know what relationship you are in?
Did I love him?
Yes, I did. I still do.
Here I should get the answer right?
But no. I didn’t love him as he expected me to. I loved him more than that. I didn’t say it but I don’t know why, I expected him to understand.
Expectations huh? They ruin everything.
So yeah, I love him but not the kinda he wanted from me. He didn’t want that deep sophisticated feeling and care. He wanted affection and he craved for the time when he could have me as he wanted.

As I said, at times love is not enough because at times, it is love that complicates everything.
He was a lively, funny and a straightforward person. He let out emotions. I was not of that kind. I was a thinker. I stored everything inside me. I know you must be thinking that what kinda person I am, at first I said that I was confused about my feelings towards him and now I am saying something else. Yes, I was confused but as we moved towards the end, his value dawned upon me. Now that I look back, I know how much I feared losing him even though I didn’t accept the fact then.

Actually I couldn’t make out what love actually feels like. I had never fallen in love before. I didn’t know its value. Then he came, not to make me fall in love with him but to help me know what love feels like. He taught me a beautiful feeling even though he didn’t want that. You see, love is also of many kinds, mine was really different.
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Relationship, commitment and friendship.
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We were sitting under the mango tree in our usual evening time. I had still not given the answer to him and he was annoyed because of that. Although I told him that he deserves a lot more than me, he was just not ready to let go.
” So, how’s life Shravan?” I asked him.
” Why don’t you give an answer?” He questioned back. Again. That same thing again.
” Where does this come from?” I looked away.

” It comes everywhere, every time. I am just tired of asking you to give a commitment. Just give it. What would happen!” He was just stuck on that.
” Look Shravan, even I am tired of making you understand that this relationship will destroy everything. Even our friendship. Please understand.” I try again. He looks thoughtful for a moment but then hunger takes over.
” Just a commitment. Please.” He says.
” Fine.” I say and I see his eyes light up.
” This is not a yes. This isn’t. From today, I commit myself to you. I can’t be of anyone else. Is that enough?” I sighed.
He nodded and I stared at the setting sun.
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It takes lot of courage to accept the fact that you are ready to let someone take a part of you. It is difficult to hold someone and try to keep the love alive.
But believe me as I say, it is even more difficult to let go of someone and still never let the love die.

24 comments

  1. Nikita

    |Registered Member

    I’m speechless you know.
    The way you defined love, the way everything took place was so seamless..
    I seriously loved it, and I await the next part!
    Loads of love to you,
    Nikita!

  2. Maria

    |Registered Member

    First of all I’m very sorry for not commenting on previous episodes, I was really busy with my tests and now I’m done with it! So coming to this episode it was as usual superb, splendid! Loved it and now very eagerly waiting for them to unite.

    With love
    Maria

  3. _pari_alisha

    |Registered Member

    Ok give me a moment so that i can take a deep breath ………………………………………………………………_____________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________————————————————————————————————
    ok while pressing these dots i got something to appreciate u… Girl u r younger than me but u r too mature than me in understanding emotions and that reflects in ur writing… Till today i thank edkv coz of it i came across namik but today i thank edkv coz it i visited this site and i came across to U…… So today i,m saying i might hv said this before but saying this once again write me as ur biggest fan plz do……. Ur each and every word just touch my heart….

    Love…. Till now i didnot hv defination of that word kinda practical me, u can say that even if i wonder if it exist…. But girl if love is the thing the way u define ”here and in epilogue of ur pre ff kahen teri khamoshiyan” than i must say I love THAT LOVE….

    Okay thats enough i guess…love u loads take care god bless u 🙂

    • WeirdSister

      |Author

      Oh my godddd…!!
      Alisha..if u keep flattering me like this..then I will start flying…!!!😉
      Thank you so so much…
      U r just too sweet..!!!!!
      I try my best to make u all happy…!!
      Love u too..!!!
      😊

  4. Ariana

    |Registered Member

    I’m latelate commenting + its late here so need to sleep but then I read ur chap……..
    My drowzinees, tiredness, stess, EVERY single bit of clumzinss ran away with ur magical words. I really can’t stop admiring ur work. Just can’t….
    U r magical….with extraordinarily talent to seep into the reality of the world and blend it with ur fiction.
    The way u express Sumo’s feelings- its so realistic. I might not have felt ‘love’ but the way u describe all boundaries of life and friendship…..its faaaaaaaar deep into the real word and I can actually relate!!
    U r amazing. Brilliant
    Stay blessed
    I’m proud enough to have a smart aff frnd like u. Feelings heavenly good.
    Love × love × love
    Take care
    All the best for ur exams
    Rock on!!

    • WeirdSister

      |Author

      If uconsoder itself to be late..then I m superrrrrr late..!!!
      Thank you so so much Ariana..!!
      Ur words mean a lot to me..
      Even I m proud to have u…!!
      Love u too…
      Thnx for ur wishes too..!
      😊

  5. Prettypreeti

    |Registered Member

    I can just say wowwwwww just woweww I mean soooo goodd one u r really awesome blossom girl.mindblowing epi.I m furious to read further.😘😘😘😘😘😘
    I love uuu.
    How can u be sooo good one.thnks for writing soo good
    The more I read the more I become interested to know what’s gonna happen next.
    Magical writing.I must say u r good and brilliant excellent writer.
    Sumo is sooo good in ur story..
    Pls post soon.
    Why only 10 epis??I can read 100 if u write.
    Love uuuuu

    • WeirdSister

      |Author

      Awee my girl..
      Thank you so much..
      I have no doubt that u can read 100 chps..of mine..but I m not capable of writing so many chps..!!!
      Love u too..
      Will try to post soon..
      😊

  6. Ruhaani

    Okay I’m extremely sorry I am in lack of even simple words or phrases to remark ur work. U said my words are soothing? Its really difficult to express wht I felt at this moment. U know not everyone has the ability *to feel and then express*…..you have it within you n trust me *its both a blessing and a curse to feel*.
    I’m literally srry frm the bottom of my heart I don’t know hw to react to ur chp. I just don’t wanna stop reading it.
    Can I pleaseeee make u a request pleaseee
    If u don’t mind can we please get to know each other more as frnz??? I hv been so desperately wanting to ask u but somewhere felt weird mking such a request but I swear I wud luv to know more of *you*…..plz do let me know!!
    Will desperately wait fr the next one
    TKe care
    Study well
    Loadzz of luv ♥♥

    • WeirdSister

      |Author

      Ruhaani….I love writing ur name…!!!
      First of all..sorry for late comment…exams r on..so..I hope u understand..!
      Nd its not a weird request..u can talk to me any time…just find a medium..
      Nd plus…u can always find me in d characters I create… !!😉
      Will try to post soon..!!
      Love u too..!
      😊

      • Ruhaani

        Your characters n the way u let out every emotion related is the only thing which made me want to know u more. A person who has the ability to express every minute feeling soo deeply wud surely hv a lot within herself too. I don’t know y but I know I wud sound too obsessed or maybe a crazy fan here but I crave fr friends and I believe a person who understands every lil partn the meaning of relations can make a perfect one. Medium to get in touch is all upto you……I wud follow u anywhere to mke my selfish desires fulfil 😉
        But fr nw just focus on ur studies cuz I completely understand ur busy lyf and of course exam devils are always der….so I wid patiently wait fr u to get free 🙂
        Tilll then take care honey♥
        Study well
        Wish u allllll the very best
        Love u loadzzzzz♥♥

    • WeirdSister

      |Author

      Oh ruhaani..
      First of all thank you so much again..
      U r way too sweet..
      Nd currently I m not on any social networking sites…but if u wish..then u can talk to me on wattpad…if u have an account..
      My id is weird sister
      😊

  7. Ruchi

    |Registered Member

    Hey Niyati aka W.S
    How r u dear? All well??
    This was really amazing…
    wow … U descibed love , relationship nd commitment so amazingly…
    M very curious to know more…
    try to post soon…
    take care …
    Nd thnx for answering my ques about my ff…
    Lots of Love
    Ruchi…

  8. Zainab

    I’m so so soooo sorry for commenting this much late. I was way too much busy these days. There was an event and I was one of the organisers so really didn’t have time for anything, not even for studies. So thought to read all the ffs I’ve missed before studying. I should stop blabbering now!
    This chapter just made me speechless. The way you always express her feelings is just so amazing. I’m so glad that I’m reading such a mind blowing ff of an amazing writer who explains each and everything so brilliantly. *standing ovation*
    You said you’re going to finish this soon? 😱 Please don’t. I’ll miss it way too much. But then you said it’ll be too much if you don’t so after finishing this come up with another ff 😉 as I am surely gonna miss you.
    Much love. Take care 😘

    • WeirdSister

      |Author

      Hey zainab..
      Thank you so much..
      I was waiting for ur comment..!
      Nd it’s okay..I understand ur situation..!
      Love u loads..
      U too take care .
      😊

  9. Fatimagulesarfraz

    |Registered Member

    hey niyati !!!! this was awwwesome ..
    Well !!!! now words r not enough in ur praise .. m short of compliments right now bcz u deserve far more than my cheeky compliments ..
    Ahhhhh !!!! u r awwwwwwesome … i know u must be got bored of reading the same word ‘AWWWWWESOME’ bt trust me u r great nd awwwesome as well … always love to read ur ff’s part ..
    stay happy
    stay blessed
    take care

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