NOISE OF THE PAST( THE CHOICE) CHAPTER 10

Hello peeps..thank you for all the love..
Let me inform you all..that the flashbacks will go on till chp-12 nd then we come back to the present..nd believe me..the chp-11 nd 12 r really important..so I wish u don’t miss them out..otherwise all ur patience nd hard work will go in vain…
Okay so now enough..

Here I bring to u..

CHAPTER-10

I know. The problem lies here- ‘I know’. Didn’t get it? Let me make it clearer, ‘only I know’. What happened that suddenly I am letting out everything that I have inside me? I was running away from all this and yet here I am, reliving my story, my past. I am doing a simple thing which many forget to do- I am letting out every drop of emotion that I have inside. There’s a always a part of you that only you know. Isn’t it? Some secrets that only you know.
People think that they know you the best but they don’t. They just know a part of you because they have seen just a side of you. They judge you on that one personality out of hundreds that you have. Many won’t agree, but this is the truth.

Maybe this would change if I say this after ten years but still there’s a voice inside me that says, ” It won’t “. Because how hard you try or how hard I try, in this circus called life we always wish that we look interesting.
There’s this thing about me, that when I am with people- my friends, my family or anyone, I am the ‘Suman Kashyap they know’. And when I am alone, not necessarily physically, then I am the ‘ Suman Kashyap I know’.
So let me guess what actually happened.
We met each other and in the beginning we knew each other as the ‘ Shravan Malhotra which people knew’ or the ‘Suman Kashyap which others know’. He fell for me or I should say, he fell for a side of me.

Then slowly and gradually we or at least I started turning into what we knew ourselves as. The mask was removed. There was no side but a whole person with many more sides. At first we let ourselves overlook the mistakes. He persuaded me so that he could always have the ‘me’ he wished for. I didn’t give an answer, because I wanted him to know the ‘real me.’
At the end there was no overlooking left. We started finding faults. Look, here I am not blaming just him. I am always saying ‘we’ because I know that even if I try to decline, I know that I did it too. But I must say that we tried holding each other. We really did.
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Out of your reach.
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Again some silly fight of ours. I don’t remember the exact reason but I know that it must be something to do with Adi. Either him getting into his over possessive mode and asking me to take sides and stuff. So we were roaming around the campus in group. It was evening time and the dusk was near. I was planning to go to my hostel today and not the lake. I had already tried talking to him but he didn’t listen. So I took leave from the group and started going.
He came from behind and said, ” Suman.”
I turned and he walked over to me.
” What would happen if you choose? Just choose, it would satisfy me. You either talk to adi or me.” Again the same damn choice. Hell man. You always have to make a choice. Don’t you?
” What will happen if I don’t? ” I questioned back
” What’s your problem huh? You just want the attention of two boys right? That why your are doing all this right?” He nearly shouted.
I am seriously telling that I was disgusted.

” Yes I want attention and I am doing all this for that!” I shouted and turned to go.
He held my hand and the touch huh. It sent currents.
” Sorry.” God I hated and still hate that word so much. It sounds hell fake to me.
I just freed my hand and went away.
Of course all was well the next day. But we couldn’t help but accept the fact that we were losing each other, how hard we tried. We were going out of each other’s reach.
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32 comments

  1. Prettypreeti

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    It was short but it was soooooooo gooddd u r marvellous writer no doubt niyo well done as always.
    I m waiting for nest epi.
    Post soon..
    Lots of luv

  2. Angel_pari

    Hey!!!!!
    Finally i got some satisfication that after ages i,m commenting at time…

    This part just rocked yar suman,s pov part that we hv many side but pplz knw only the side we showed them is just so true….and to accept someone its so imp that other person know all sides of us….. Hats of to u girl ur thoughts ur way to look at things is just sooo amazing and when that reflects in ur write ups it made me justt awstruck that can any one hv that much mature thinking at that age….

    I love u and ur writings soooo much

    okkk so two more epi than past will be revealed so i,m damnnnn excited post soon…

    Stay blessed take care

    • WeirdSister

      |Author

      Thank you so so much angel…!!
      Ur comment brought a smile on my face..!!
      M so glad to c u commenting…!!!
      Will try to post soon..to sparespare you some waiting..
      Love u loads..
      U too take care..!
      P.S- if u read this..give me ur wattpad Id..if u have one..!

    • WeirdSister

      |Author

      Thank you so much Anu..
      So glad to c ur comments.. After so many days..
      Hope to c u sson.. With n ff of ur own..
      Love u loads..!
      Will try to post soon

  3. Ruchi

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    Hey Niyati aka WS
    How r u dear? All gud?
    howz lyf going on??
    hope u remember me…Missed u all so much…
    Sumo’s those words that people only know the side of ours which we show them was so true…
    The way u described her p.o.v was amazingly written…
    the epi was all n all mindblowing…
    try to post soon…
    take care
    Love you!!!
    Ruchi… 🙂

    • WeirdSister

      |Author

      Hey ruchi..
      Missed u too..
      Life is..as it was..!!!
      Thank you so much..
      Hope to ur comments..ahead also..!
      Will try to post soon..
      Love u too..
      😊

  4. Ruhaani

    Hey!!
    Well I totally agree with this *one sided theory* of we humans n tht truly justifies as to wht sumo has been towards shravan. And moreover that *choice* has to come over n over again fr everything to set all right. Phewww!! Till now I ws in complete favour of shravan’s character bt nw I feel this possessiveness is creating a drift btn them. 🙁 But as always the point is U MAKE IT LUK SO REAL……as if it is a part of ur story. Is it :-p ? No maskabaazi but seriously female u mke me feel m a JABRA WALI FAN OF U…UR THOUGHTS AND OFCOURSE UR FICTION ♥♥
    This desperation fr next parts will surely kill me somedayyy…..pleaseeeeee post soon!!
    Tke care….loadz of love♥♥

    • WeirdSister

      |Author

      Oh my god ruhaani..!
      Ur comments r so soothing to read..just like ur name..!!
      Thank you so so much…!!!
      Will try really hard to post soon..!
      Love u too..
      U too take care..
      😊

  5. AnShIta

    |Registered Member

    Hey di!
    AMAZINGLY AMAZING episode! Loved it man!
    Post soon!
    Loads of love!<3
    P.S.- Sorry for the extremely short comment! Have gotten loads of school work to do!

    • WeirdSister

      |Author

      Hey anshu..
      Thank you sweety..
      Nd its okay..if u write a short comment..I understand..!
      Love u loads..
      Will try to post soon..
      A request- plz manage to read it..if not comment..!!
      😊

  6. Zainab

    Such an amazing episode. Loved all your explanations as always. You write amazingly well. I just love your writings 💕 👌
    Post soon. Take care. Loads of love. 😘
    P.S I guess I didn’t comment on your previous episode so I’m sorry for that. Having a lot of stuff to do nowadays. It gets really difficult to come on this site everyday. I’m really sorry.

  7. Ria

    Omg it was just fabulous sumo ne sahi kaha hamari life main jab log aate hai to start main sirf hamara ek side hi dekhte hai or uspar hi humein judge karte hai but kisi bhi relationship main kisi bhi mod par ek dusre ka haath thame rehna jaruri hota hai or sumo jis situation main hai vo hai vo dono ek dusre ko puri tarah jan chuuke hai isliye ek dusre se fed up ho chuke hai by the it was really nicee i just loved it plz post nxt part soon i really like the way u put out feelings wow it just fabulous please post nxt part soooon

  8. Ariana

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    Here I coooommmeeee!!!
    Honestly, idk what to say now- I’m completely clueless. U made me speechless at this point and I can’t even form simple sentences
    but I really must not avoid the fact that u r amazing. I told it to u a hundred times nd by now it sounds like my regular ‘not significant’ feelings but I really cannot stop admiring u.
    Not gonna brag but I read so much of ss that I do guess out a lot of outcomes before hand or if not then the ending does not go through my brain straight like “wow” but like “yah makes sense” BUT…
    U, with every single of ur chapter, keep on exploding my reading experience. I never stop getting surprises from u. U r super talented- like VERY VERY “OUT OF WORD LIMIT” talented.
    Such realistic wordings. Even professional ppl do lose track nd gets lost in fantasy but u held ur characters so tight in the very same place as it was in the beginning of the story
    JUST LOVE IT!!!!!
    U rock
    Stay blessed nd keep on surprising me – I’m getting addicted to ur charming words
    love u sooooooooooooooooooooooooo much
    take care

    • WeirdSister

      |Author

      Hey Ariana..!!
      This time I m super late..
      M so sorry…was hell busy..!
      My exams r on..nd next is maths!😉😯
      Thank you so much for all those flattering words..
      Love u loads..!
      Will try to post soon..
      U too take care..
      😊

  9. Alina

    |Registered Member

    Superb.. Well done!!
    Niyati u r too good girl ur each n every word reflects emotions…hats Of 👏👏
    Episode is amazing as always..loved it
    Post next epi soon
    Love u loads
    Byee
    Take care!!

  10. Fatimagulesarfraz

    |Registered Member

    Hey niyati !!!! Oh this time m the most late of all .. sorry for that .. this life is so damn busy that I hardly get time to read r coment .. so apart from my buk buk this time u rockkkkkked it again .. u r letting me speechless day by day by ur amazing writing skills … wondering what would I comment on the onward parts .. bcz after reading every single part of urs I hv to think what to say .. every time u really left me ‘Speechless’ .. ur writing is so damn BEAUTIFUL ..
    Keep making me speechless :Day
    Love youuu

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