Hello everyone..thank you for your love and support on the previous chapters…this one is long..and so are the other two..but I hope you don’t leave them in the middle…here comes..


You know what is the most important thing he has given me?
It is the power to express myself. To channelise my pain and love in the right direction. I have started writing. Writing stories or even about random topics. The main thing being: I have found a way out.
He has given me a way to bring out my emotions.
So this is what my plan is about. Letting him know a few things which he is yet to know. My feelings? I guess they are not left much now. I don’t mean that they have died down or something. Its just that the ‘urge’ has gone. It comes back many times, but now time has defeated my desires. So yeah my feelings? I still don’t know if they would be a part of all this. I am yet to figure that out.

I take out the books which would be in his possession soon and as a ritual, I start writing some quotes. The difference being, this time they belong to me. If he is smart enough or let me say, interested enough, he will relate everything. If not then I guess, huh, the list will close down.

I really wish I could get to know his side of story too. Like what’s really going on inside his head. But I guess, not all wishes are fulfilled.

Shravan has changed. A lot. Now even the name sounds weird in my mouth. Its not just me that says so. Every person who was a part of his life three years ago will say so. That charm that had that touch of innocence is now replaced by an attitude that has a touch of cockiness. I dislike this new Shravan that has been formed over the years. I know people change, but not so much that people can’t recognise them. Huh. Old days. They are always the best. Aren’t they? How much ever we try to think that our future would be beautiful and amazing, there’s always a void that can’t be filled. A space that could only be filled in the past. People say that past is for learning. But I say that past is for keeping. For cherishing the memories that could be formed only because there existed a ‘past’.

So yeah, Shravan! ‘ The man of my dreams.’
I have imagined so many times late at night, that what would happen when I would confront him. Confront him about why I couldn’t say a yes or a no. Well there’s another reason. And that is, that I am stupid. One big idiot. I am bad at handling emotions. They do something to me. And specially emotions like his. You know what’s going on with me over the past year. I am literally being haunted! I must admit that I was selfish at the beginning of our so called relationship. I was. And everybody is. Who doesn’t want attention? Who doesn’t like to be flattered?
Well, the thing about me is either I give nothing or I loose everything. And I think love makes people do the latter. I don’t like loosing everything I have got. I know others would say, that you ‘give away’ everything in love but for me it’s loosing. I do not despise love or anything as such. Its just that I feel that any kind of strong emotion, be it love or hatred has the power to burn everything to ashes. If you don’t have control over your feelings, you will loose yourself. And till now, as I have seen, I can hide my feelings but I can’t control them. They posses me and that’s a bad thing.

But I have finally found a way to get out of that control, and that’s by pushing my emotions in a direction I can control. Driving my car, on a road that I know to drive on.

So yeah, so many things said and yet so much so much more is left. Now that I have spent around a year tackling my dreams and answering my question about making a choice a few years back, I think that I have finally found an answer. And that is: Fate is the perfect enemy of change.
What’s destined can’t be changed and what has changed had to be destined.
Time is the undefeated king. Whatever it brings with it, it brings for your own good. At least that’s what people say. And I think I hear myself chuckle as I remind myself, that time is about to change and the games are about to begin. Chuckle again.

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  1. fabulous

  2. WOAH!!! This was truly amazing. The way you portray and explain her feelings is mind blowing. *standing ovation*
    Loved this chapter so so soooooo much. ?
    I read this like 2 hours ago but had class then, so couldn’t comment. ?
    Post the next one soon please. I really can’t wait to read it ?
    Much love. Take care ?

    1. WeirdSister

      Thank you zainab..
      Will post soon..
      Love u loads!!

  3. nice yaar. post next one soon.

    1. WeirdSister

      Thnx reema..
      Will post soon..

  4. Beas

    Superb chapter!!! I guess what Suman is upto. Post the next one soon ?

    1. WeirdSister

      Thanks beas..
      Will try to post soon..

  5. Nikita

    Wow.. this was amazing. . The way you described everythingbwas spectacular.. the way you described *THE PAST* woah.. im in love with your writing all over again… Love youuu,
    Nishu ^_^

    1. WeirdSister

      Thanks nishu..
      Love u tootoo

  6. Angel20

    First of all I’m so sorry for not commenting on the previous ones! Was really busy with studies. Okay so coming to this chapter, as usual it was superb! But there’s one request I want Shravan’s voice now. I just wanna know his feelings. So please consider my request and yeah do post soon!

    With Love❤

    1. WeirdSister

      Thanks maria..
      And its okay..
      About Shravan’s POV.. I can’t guarantee that.. My hands are full right now..
      Will try to post soon..
      Love u loads..!

  7. _Rida

    Perfect! Each and every word was beyond perfection but yet i hv great desire to know shravan,s side of story,his pov.
    And sumo’s thoughts,her emotions u hv portrayed so brilliantly that it made me feel every bit of it.
    Do post soon.

    1. WeirdSister

      Thanks rida..
      About Shravan’s POV..I m not sure.. Because I have got my hands full.. But I will try my best..
      Will try to post soon..
      Love ya..!

  8. Ruchi

    Hey Nitati
    How r u dear?
    Sorry was not able to cmmnt on prev chap…
    It was amazing as always…
    even i want to know Shravan’s side of story… Reason for sudden chnge in Shravan’s behaviour…
    take care
    post soon
    Lots of Luv

    1. Ruchi

      ** Niyati

    2. WeirdSister

      Hey ruchi..
      Thanks and its okay..
      I m not sure if I can fulfil your wish..but will try my best..
      Love ya..
      U too take care..

  9. Rukhsar

    What is this niyati……how can be someone so good at writing that others don’t have words to praise u…..seriously trust me today i m short of words…. I m speechless as what to say to u……u r incredible…….u r just wow……we all love u coz of ur realistic stories and today u have proved that u r really a real writer……i wanna ask u something….do u write just on these websites or somewhere else….coz i think that u r such a brilliant writer that u should get a proper stage for ur writings where u can get credit for ur efforts i mean in such a young age u r so strong with ur words and writing…..i m sure that u will surely become a great writer once u grow up

    1. WeirdSister

      Oh my god..
      Thanks a lot naina..
      And I will start writing on wattpad from may..
      Please let me know..if you have an Id there..
      I need as many people as I support me..
      Thanks for all the means a lot to me..
      Love u loads..

      1. Rukhsar

        Its not flattering neeti its truth…..anyways i don’t have wattpad id but will make one soon

  10. Prettypreeti

    Hey niyo..i just loved it..sorry for not commenting on previous chappies but they r awesome..but why ending..i just loved it..u r killing my heart beats its stopping readung ur workk.just too good…post more

    1. WeirdSister

      Thanks preeti..
      I have to end it someday right?
      Will try to post soon..
      Love you sweety..

  11. RANdomfANCreationz

    Hey WS so sorry couldn’t comment on the previous chap i was quite busy last month that’s why but now Will try my best to comment all chappy loved the way u portray sumo’s POV yaar

    1. WeirdSister

      Hey fatarajo..m really glad to c ur comment..
      Thanks a lot..
      Love u loads .!

  12. Sorry niyati di for a late comment. I was down wid fever. Third last epi !! Gosh its going to end which is making me crazy. Once again your wonderful ff will end but there is always a beginning to an end so i hope u will surely come up wid something awesome. Epi was tooo gooood. Waiting for the 2 dhamakas.

    1. WeirdSister

      Hey deotima..
      Hope u r feeling better now..
      Thanks a lot..
      And I hope that I won’t disappoint u…
      Will try to post soon.
      Love ya.

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