I have a message for all of u including Madhumila too. Please read that which is after the end of this story……..
Everyone is wondering why I am not saying yes or no to Pragya. But I am wondering does it matter to say yes or no when I asked her to wait for me? I feel that sometimes accepting something that we love can’t be restricted to the words like yes or no. Yes I want her to wait for me to accept her or No I want her to wait to accept me! Both have the same meaning of me accepting her or she accepting me……It seems to be complicated but I never felt saying yes or no to her instead I said wait for me to her…..What made me say like that? Maybe her past where she did not had anyone to wait for? Maybe the joy of seeing her waiting for me? Whatever the reason is I can’t wait any longer to express my feelings to her! Today I am going to confess my wait for her!
Abhi called her and said “ Pragya! I am waiting for you in my room and could u make your way to my house?” Pragya with excitement “Really? “ Abhi “ Really Ms Pragya but it would be better if u make your way to my house soon!” Pragya, I hate him calling me Ms Pragya! It sounds as if he is considering me like a stranger! Pragya “Ok I will be there soon!”
Pragya, Do I have to inform Dadi about my arrival there? And he called me to his house? It means Dadi should be aware of it right? Yes so I just make my way there.
Pragya with so much excitement and eagerness went in a pink salwar to see him. It was the same color where she wore when he came to see her the first time. She did not even inform her Ma and just left the house to see him. That much of eagerness was filled in her heart to see him!
Pragya entered the house and decided to call his number as she realised that there was no one in the house! Pragya thought for a second, I thought Dadi would be around but there is no one here! How is that possible? Do I have to meet him alone? Is it safe? Pragya! You are safe if u think he is safe! Yes he is not that kind of person who misbehaves with u! Maybe he wants to talk personally about something important.
Pragya after having a lot of thoughts called him and he also picked up the call. Abhi “Just come up Pragya! I am in the very first room that u will see when come up from the staircase!” Pragya “Ok I am coming!”
She walked up the stairs with a lot of thoughts on what he is going to tell her! Yes or no? Every step she took it only makes her think either he would say yes or no. And finally she reached towards the door of the room and knocked the door. Abhi from inside“Come in!” Pragya went in and saw him very dashing while sitting on the bed looking at some files. Abhi “ Sit down on the couch there!” Pragya nodded her head in response and said “ What’s the matter? I mean u never ask me to meet like this before!” Abhi “ I know u are waiting for my answer yes or no right?” Pragya in enthusiasm stood up and said” Are u going to answer me today?” Abhi “ Yes!! But u can have a sit to listen to my answer and why are u so excited?” Pragya hiding her excitement and wide smile “ No…just like that…” Abhi grinned at her anticipation for his answer. Abhi “ I looked at the details of the event and it seems to be very useful to the public so Yes I would like to work with the NGO that u are working with!” Pragya couldn’t believe what he said and was totally disappointed with his reply. Abhi “ Are u not happy with my Yes?” Pragya, When did I thought that his yes would be for this? I thought he would said yes to me! But it’s ok at least he said yes to something that is part of me!
Pragya’s face looked as if it shrinked in his unexpected answer of Yes. Abhi stretched his hand and said “ Here take this file and look at it. I know u have seen this before but it have some changes made to it!” Pragya with a smile took it from him and looked at the file. She was shocked to see the words I WILL MARRY YOU written in it! Pragya immediately looked up to see him but he was nowhere to be seen.
Pragya “ Are u here? And what is this?” Pragya went near the bed where he was sitting opposite to her and was just looking around the room from where she was standing. Abh “Here I am!” Pragya looked at him who was walking towards her with a rose. Abhi “Why u can’t wait for me just by sitting down on the couch?” Pragya “ What u have written on the paper here is it true?” Abhi with a smirk “ What I have written?” Pragya “ I will marry you!” Abhi “ Really Pragya? You want to marry me ah?” Pragya “ No that’s what is written in the paper!” Abhi “ No it means u don’t want to marry me?” Pragya “ Yes! As in No I mean….I am totally confused with this Yes and No now!” Abhi “ I will tell you then! I don’t believe in the words of yes or no Pragya! So I will just say directly that I will marry you!”
Pragya took few seconds to accept the fact that he accepted her! She was still in the confused expression which made Abhi laughed and said “ You know something? I always see u in some mode! Not mood as I use phone a lot and relate it to modes! The first time I saw u then u were in silent mode! Then whenever I texted u! U were always in the general mode where u never miss to reply me back! Then now u are in the vibration mode where u are keep on vibrating with either excitement or confusion!” Pragya “ Huh? Are u finding me like a phone? I am not a phone ok? I am Pragya!” Abhi “Pragya my phone that is going to have different modes in my life!” Pragya giggled at his line of relating her to phone. Abhi “ Ok! Now it’s serious matter!”
Abhi gave her the rose that he was holding and she took it while blushing and smiling in happiness. Abhi went on his knees and said “ I will marry you! Will you?” Pragya still couldn’t believe that he is proposing her for marriage and said “ Yes or no that I don’t know but what I know that u are the only one that I have waited to marry!” Abhi just pulled her hand and made her also sit down. Abhi “ I just want you to know that sometimes yes or no doesn’t matter as waiting for someone with expectation will give away the answers to your questions!” Pragya “ I really love while waiting for u as the wait made me fall in love with u immensely!” Abhi “ Same here!” By saying that he kissed her forehead and hugged her with so much of love as if there is no need to wait any longer to express his love to her!
That’s how modes of life a very random OS come to an end! The title is also very random haha due to manufacturing defect of creating titles for OS. But after reading my following message, U all will know that I won’t be having any defects in creating titles as the need itself will not be there.
This part of what I will be sharing will be quite long but I felt that I need to express my feelings so….Sorry for disturbing you all with my baks baks. I have to say sorry to Madhumila to irritate her with my OS. I am so sorry Madhumila and U never hurt me but made me think. So hereafter I will not write any OS. My mum always say whatever an individual do should not bother anyone if it bothers any one person even though they are not related to u in anyway then it is not necessary to be done. No matter how much happiness u get from what u do but it should always never disturb anyone around u….This is what I also think and in that way I am so sorry for making u irritated. I am not Monesha to write OS like her. Everyone has a different writing style and Monesha sis is great in her writing at such a young age.
My writing is very simple with the only thought to make others happy as I want all those around me to be happy at all times. So I will continue that in my ff……As usual thank u all for bearing my random disturbances through my OS. Once again I am very sorry to all those who find my OS irritating or annoying. I really didn’t mean to make u all irritate. If at any point of time, if anyone find my ff not nice please do tell me as a friend so that either I will correct it or end it. As always I accept any kind of comments, because I very well know the fact that my writing here is not forever and I only want to gain and give happiness through my writings for the short period that I am here. May be that is the reason why I am trying myself to be regular as possible. You all don’t know how much I have changed as a better person by writing here….After all it’s because I have made good friends, sisters and brothers here that is more than enough in all ways as I always value the people around me. When I stop writing I want to leave here with those pleasant memories without any disturbances to anyone.
Hope u all can understand my simple hope of making others to have happiness through my writings and in that process may be I could have become stupid too. Please do tell me when I am like that in my writings. Thank you friends and sorry for giving such a long talk again. I always hate to disturb u all with my personal feelings but sometimes it is necessary to say it instead of keeping it to myself. Those who follow me from the beginning know that I am always like this. The truth very well lies in the name that I used to write here Maya (illusion), illusion stays only for a short period of time…but I am staying here longer than I expected but very soon I will disappear too……..I thought If I tell that in tamil it would be very nice, maya mayama maranju pogurathe maruka mudiyathu (Maya disappearing like a maya can’t be denied).
Lakshmi thank u for expressing your concern through your sensible thoughts and I totally agree with u in what u have said. Riya too thanks for the support. LakshmiSiva I know you are very concerned and can’t stand anything against me so as I told u earlier yesterday don’t get angry and take a chill pill. Your anger makes me feel how blessed I am to get an akka like u! So as a younger sis, I always like u to be calm as calmness will bring a lot of changes in u……..Surbhi! No need to be sorry yaar, I know your boyfriend (assignments) is also like mine but mine is making me mad to the extent that I am trying to divert my mind in some crazy ways……. To the rest, as always I am grateful as being a foreigner and getting a lot of love and support here it’s very overwhelming. It can’t be expressed in words…..So sorry as I am unable to read other OS or ffs frequently and comment on it. I wish all the writers to have a wonderful writing experience and to my readers have a ravishing reading experience in all ways.