Hello My lovely ladies!! Your Deepu is back!! I have posted this story on wattpad..As i promised i am posting it here On TU too for those who are not on wattpad…Please let me know your reviews…
Dedicated to Manha….She has a great share behind this story to come in form of words..THank you darling for your all the help…Muhha….
She Was Going To Get Married To Some Other Person Who Was Not Me. He Was Not Worth Of Her Affection And Love. She Was An Angel, My Angel. Every Mans Desire And Dream. But More Prominently My Personal Dream Which Could Never Be True. I Never Thought I Had a Soul mate who could love me and I never dreamt I would ever meet her in this pathetic life of mine. She Turned Into A Beautiful Swan Before My Very Own Eyes. The Most Gorgeous Girl In The World. She Was All I Could Ask For.
Yes You Guessed It Right. I Was In Love With My Best Friend . I Never Believed In Love. I Used To Laugh At Those Persons Whenever They Said They Can Spend Their Whole Life With That One Person Whom They Loved. I Used To Tease Them Saying They Are Acting Like Love Struck Puppies And Pushed Aside Those Bullshit Thoughts. But Over the Time, My Feelings For Her Deepened. These Intense Feelings Were Killing Me From Inside, Piercing My Heart With Sharp Objects. It Gave Me Unbearable pain And Torture. But It Was A Sweet Torture. I Could Endure It All My Life.
I Could Have Been Anywhere. But Still I Was Standing In front Of The Wedding Hall Where My Love Would Be Leaving Me Alone. The Thought Itself Made Me Suffocated. I Couldn’t Sleep A Wink Last Night With These Thoughts. She Was Constantly Roaming Infront Of My Eyes. Everywhere I See, She Was Visible. It Felt So Real. But When I Moved Forward To Touch She Would Disappear. She Was Playing With Me Now, Haunting Me With Her Memories. Her Antics, Her Smiles, Her Innocence, Her Eyes Which Sparkled My World. I Wouldn’t Be Able To See All Those Again. Everything Flashed Before My Eyes Like A Reverie , The Time We Spend Each Other, Places We Visited Holding Hands. My Heart Ached When I Realised She Would Not Be There With Me From Next Day. I Would Not Have Any Right Over Her After This Marriage.
I Was A Fool To Let Her Go. Whenever She Told She Loved Me, Wanted Me; I Remained Silent. I Feigned Innocence And Told Her I Just Saw Her As A Friend. Nothing More Than That. When In Reality I Just Wanted To Hold Her In My Hands, Kiss Her Hard Show Her How Much I Loved. At The End She Got Fed Up Of Me , And That Was The Day When I Lost Her.
I Came Out Of My Trance And Entered The Hall. It Was Beautifully Decorated. The Mandap Was Glowing Bright With Lights And Flowers. The Place Where My Love Will Be Taking Oaths To Become His Wife. I Hate Him With All My Being. No. I Hate Myself. If Only I Could Have Shown Some Guts And Courage To Express My Love And Feelings. We Would Have Been In A Different Situation. It Was All My Fault. And I Could Never Forgive Myself For It. I Hurted Her. I Screwed Up Royally And I Was Paying For It. The Pain Which Comes When We Know That We Are Supposed To Live Our Life Like This. Deprived Of Love.
Love. Really Neil. My Mind Mocked Me.
Why Wouldn’t It. I Was The Biggest Casanova. A Player Who Was Used To Play With Girls And Threw Them Out Like Trash When I Had Enough Of Them. They Were Nothing To Me. Their Feelings Never Affected Me. They Knew What They Were Signing When They Came To Me. It Was A Mutual Thing.
But Sam. My Sam. My Love. She Was Not Like Other Girls. She Was Special, Different In Any Sense. She Was The Only Girl Whom I Befriended. I Wanted To Protect Her. That Was A Foreign Feeling For Me. And I Couldn’t Understand Why I Felt That Way. It Brought Peace To My Heart When I Was With Her . Eventually I Had Fallen. I Have Fallen Hard That It Was Impossible To Live Without Her Now.
I Want To Punch Someone. I Want To Kill Him. I Wanted Her To Take With Me. Bring Her To A Place Where Only She And I Would Be There. No Disturbances. Where I Could Love Her All The Time. But It Was Too Late Now. I Was Stupid I Admit. But I Couldn’t Stand Here Now. These Thoughts, This Place Was Killing Me. It Was Making Me Uneasy. Even Hard To Breathe. I Wanted To Escape From This. From My Own Conscience.. So I Did The Most Intelligent Thing I Could Think Of. I Ran Out Of The Hall To Reach A Secluded Place Where I Could Stay Alone. Where Her Thoughts Couldn’t Invade Me. Where I Would Drown In Alcohol Till I Became Numb. But Who Was I Kidding. She Was Flowing In My Body Like Blood.
I Was About To Start My Bike,When I Heard The Slam Of Door Of Hall. Turning Back To The Doorway I Saw My Angel. She Was Dressed In Her Gorgeous Wedding Dress. She Was Holding Her Lehenga Tight In Her Clutches. I could stare at her like this all my life.
Her Eyes Were Brimming With Tears. Every Tear Drop Which Fall From Her Eyes Was Literally Cutting My Heart Into Pieces. Everything Went Silent When Our Eyes Locked. I Wanted To Move. To Wipe Her Tears And Secure Her In My Embrace. To Comfort Her. But My Legs Were Rooted To The Spot.
My Heart Beat Rose When She Took Baby Steps Towards Me. In Seconds She Was Before Me. She Was Silent. There Was Tension In The Air. It Was Making Me Nervous. What Was She Doing Here. She Should Be Inside. She Was About To Get Married But ShE was Standing Infront Of Me With Blank Face. But Her Eyes Told A Different Story. They Were Showing Hurt, Pain And Fear. Fear Of Losing Me. Me?? Hadn’t I Already Lost Her?
With All The Courage I Could Gather. I Pushed My Feet Forward. But Stopped Myself When I Heard The Rattle Of The Door Loud. Moving My Gaze I Saw He Was Standing There. His Hands Clenched In A Tight Grip. His Eyes Held Anger . Anger Which Was Directed Towards Me. His Dark Eyes Boring Deep Into Me. If Only Looks Could Kill. I Would Be Dead By Now.
“Sam Please Listen To Me. , I Love You..I Want You To Be My Wife..Please Come Inside..” He Begged
I Watched The Struggle In Her Eyes. Her Voice Barely Whisper But I Could Hear “ I Don’t Think I Can…I Don’t Know What To Do…”
When She Met My Eyes Again. I Wanted To Be Selfish For Once. If She Can Be My Side Always I Even Can Beg Her. I Would Beg Her To Love Me, To Marry Me. To Not Leave Me. But Can I Do That? I Was Her Misery. I Caused Her This Pain. I Was The Reason She Was Hurt At First Place.
But I Wanted To Take This Chance. It Was Now Or Never. I Would Die Peacefully That I Atleast Tried. Tried To Make Her Mine. And Could Finally Express My Love To Her.
So I Spoke. With All My Heart.
“I Love You Sam. You Are My Heart, My Soul,My Everything. I Was Such Fool To Let You Go. To Not Accept Your Love. To Not Say That I Love You. I Loved You All Along. I Know I Was A Complete Asshole. I Know I Don’t Deserve You. But I Want This Chance. One Single Chance To Prove That I’m Worth Of It. I’m Worth Of You. I Wanted Us. I Wanted Us To Be Forever.. I’m Tired Of All Ti Red Of Running Away From You. Tired Of Running From Love.For Once I Wanted To Be Loved. I Want, No Need To Love You. I Want To Be The Reason Of Your Happiness. I Wanted To Be The Reason Your Eyes Gleam With Joy. Please Can You Give Me That One Chance. Please Sam. It Is Your Decision Now To Make My Life Or Break It. I Would Be Happy With Wahtever Your Decision Is. Your Happiness Is Important To Me More Than Mine.
Now That I Told Her Everything. There Was A Serene Feeling In Me Along With Anxiousness. But I Was Happy I Could Tell Her All Those Things Which I Never Dreamed I Would Get A Chance To Tell. Now It Was Her Decision. Decision On Which My Whole Life Is Depended. I Was Waiting For It. Waiting To See Who She Would Choose. Me Or Armaan. It All Depends On Her. It Was Only Her Now.
Next : Chapter One
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