Living with integrity means not settling for less than what you know deserve in your relationships. Asking for what you want and need from others. Speaking your truth, even though it might create conflict or tension. Sometimes a truth is much better than a lie which can kill a heart….
Swara: Sanskar, I know what I goanna tell you might shock you….. No matter what is your decision I will always love you….. I understand the fact if you want to leave me after you know about me….. And I won’t disturb you…..
Sanskar: What rubbish you are talking, Swara! I won’t leave you….
Swara: Shhh…place her finger on his lips……. Sanskar let me finish first….. Sanskar, what IF I SAY TO YOU ……..THAT I AM INCESTUOUS CHILD …..MY FATHER AND MOTHER ARE SIBLINGS….. A bitter tear escaped from her eyes…… Sanskar was so shocked with the truth that just comes out from Swara’s mouth…..
I’m sorry Sanskar I don’t to mention their name because that is the names that I want to forget in my life….. It’s very hard for me to talk about my past but to takes our relationship forward you need to know my story…..
My mother is a good woman, Sanskar….. Most of the time she will spend time doing house chores to reduce her parents work, studies and do prayers in house….. Her parents were always outstation regarding their work….. So, they will leave her for my father to take care…. On my dad’s 21th birthday, he was throwing a part and get drunk and he raped his own sister, my mom who is just 15 that time…. My mom was been raped by him….. In the age where she didn’t know anything because she is too innocent for that…. My grandparents, comes to know the truth when my mother 4 months pregnant with me …My mother couldn’t go through an abortion too because she already entered her fourth month pregnancy which can danger for her too….There is no option for her than give birth for me…… They move from there to city when people around comes to know the truth and couldn’t stay there any longer with villagers cursing and badmouths.… that nine months were the torturous time for my mother ,though she was innocent but she know it’s wrong… And there I came in the world like one of the most curse child…… My mother safely gives birth to me…..
My mother had forbidden here parents from sending me to orphanage and stay stubborn want to raise me….. She raised me carefully for her I was like a princess……When I was 5 year old, her parents passed away in a car accident…. My dad starts to look up the business that their parents left…… At night, he always comes to house in drunken state….. Sometimes, he brings girls to our house….. She protected me every time, from every bad things which was expected from my father when he was drunk ………..even my father and in mood of hell abusing me ,my mother was… the one who shielded me in front of him….
There was one day, my dad was too drunk and he was consuming drugs on that time….. He forces my mother to sleep with him….. She fights with him because it’s a sin….. She doesn’t want to go through it again even she is been raped that time…. He started to beat my mother beat her hard till she was bleeding and unconscious…..
I wake up and start to search mother when she was not beside me….. I heard noise from the room beside ……. I went there….. My d..a…d……. h…e…. lo ( Swara was crying vigorously and chocking voice) HE…..RAP….PED…. ME…… I was just 10 that time Sanskar… My mother gain conscious that time and take the knife and stabbed him…… He died….. My mom gains her conscious to late…. My mother was admitted in hospital because she was beaten badly and lost a lot of blood and she goes come….. She passed away after one week…..
I have been send to orphanage after treatment….. I was in trauma… I have been remained silent and don’t play with other children at orphanage….. I have been under treatment with psychiatrist for so long…. I slowly became normal with the psychiatrist’s every session….. I started to talk with other children and I managed to get Angel as my friend….. She was with me in my every stage of life… Then, I get Zoya as my another friend….. Both of them not only my friend but my sisters, mother and my one and only family in this world…. When I entered my teenage, the orphanage warden was my grandparent’s friend; he told me everything after I force him to know about my background…. That time I shattered and broke down again and felled ashamed but Zoya and Angel bring me to the light….. They become my strength to fight…..
Sanskar starred the lake without blinking with too much sorrow and pain he felt for her, his face was totally wet… He didn’t utter a word to Swara….. Sanskar stand up and pull Swara’s wrist to follow him…. Sanskar opens the car door for Swara and tightened the seat belt….
Sanskar: Wait here….. I want do some phone calls…..
Swara just nodded that she agrees waiting him in a car…. She stay quite thinks he might need some time to give her answer…. Her eyes shut when the dark memories flash in her mind….. Memories which she wants forget…. She cries again…..
Sanskar cuts the call and get in the car….. He drives the car to Cameron while Swara already fall asleep after crying too much….
Next: Sanskar’s answer…… Zoya, Reylin and Arnavangela shocked with Sanskar……
Credit to: Rina Sivaguru