Why parents just need to have their child being a studious kid and be a topper always . At first when got low marks I was beated now a little bit change I was taunted .I tried to be a studious kid but all went in vain . Because my mind got into a thinking that there won’the be any satisfaction in my marks and if gotten low marks also would only hear a few words of taunt. But it is too late for my parents to change as they failed the 15 years of parenting. Children are like seeds that they needed to be took care from nourishing to plucking the weeds around them . I still feel I am the only reason for what I am. Because I felt useless hearing their words . I used write a dairy you know what in that I would always mention something saying that I wanted to die that moment giving my life to someone else because being a child of 12 I did know that . You had expectations on me but failed to note my expectations.
But still who I am to blame you because according to others me is the one who should be blamed right. I felt jealous of my own sibling not that he is more beautiful but the attention of you towards increased my jealous towards him. I still remember when he got typhoid you called my grandparents to take care and be with him always but what about me I got the same typhoid before months but what no one was even there to monitor whether I am taking medicines or not. I accepted the scoldings and tauntings of you realising that many of them don’t have parents even to scold them but you didn’t realise that many of them did not have children to grew them up. Now you don’t have to scold me anymore because it is too late and just saying even if you have failed in parenting I still love you from core of my heart . I just have a request that my brother should not think the same what you made me thought and when I tried to be as a shield he just thrower me but please be friend with him and teach everything in a positive way with love.
Your daughter who will love you always ….
I always wanted to make someone live because of me.
The couple who read this was crying so much they failed to notice their daughters destroyed heath and when it was noticed it was too late. Now they realise and wanted to grow up their 2nd child atleast like she wished.
“Growing a child as topper doesn't matter but as a human should matter to parents”
Guys really sorry if you felt bore with this . Actually I wrote just like that what was in my mind . And you can imagine the pair of couple to be swasan or raglak . I just wanted to show a pov of normal child. If you want to say or bash me for this you are welcome….