Third Person’s pov

Sanskar hadn’t come home since last two days, it’s been his daily routine since past few months. He has been drowned in guilt and nothing is left in his life. He reached a pub nearby and started to drink. He crossed the road in his drowsy state and was about to be hit by a car but someone pulled him aside. He shoved his hands not wanting any help!!..

Tenu itna main pyar karaan
Ik pal vich sau baar karaan
Tu jaave je mainu chhad ke
Maut da intezaar karaan

Sanskar keeps on drinking…

Ke tere liye duniya chod di hai
Tujhpe hi sans aake rukhe
Main tujhko kitna chahta hoon
Ye tu kabhi soch na sake

He sleeps on the road and reminses his moments with Swara.

Ke tere liye duniya chod di hai
Tujhpe hi sans aake rukhe
Main tujhko kitna chahta hoon
Ye tu kabhi soch na sake

He recalls their happy moments, their fun, their love, their proximity.

Kuch bhi nahi hai ye jahan
Tu hai to hai ismein zindagi

Kuch bhi nahi hai ye jahan
Tu hai toh hai isme zindagi
Ab mujhko jaana hai kahan
Ke tu hi safar hai aakhiri

He lays down thinking about how he slapped her. How he said that he loves Kavita not her!!..

Ke tere bina jeena mumkin nahi
Na dena kabhi mujhko tu faasle
Main tujhko kitna chahati hoon
Ye tu kabhi soch na sake

Tere liye duniya chod di hai
Tujhpe hi saans aake rukhe
Main tujhko kitna chahta hoon
Ye tu kabhi soch na sake

Ankhon ki hai yeh khwahishein
Ki chehre se teri na hatein
Neendon mein bas tere
khwabon ne li hai karwatein

How selfish he’s to ask her to return to him!!..

Ki teri ore mujhko leke chale
Ye duniya bhar ke sab rastein
Main tujhko kitna chahta hoon
Ye tu kabhi soch na sake

Tere liye duniya chod di hai
Tujhpe hi sans aake rukhe
Main tujhko kitna chahta hoon
Ye tu kabhi soch na sake

He reminses Swara marrying Varun and lays down in the road.

Sanskar reached home senseless, some good person had dropped him. This continued for months. Everytime Sanskar came home he was fully drunk!!..

Sparsh would wait for him the entire night to talk with him like those other days!!.. But he never showed up. The little kid would sleep there on the couch waiting for his father. His nanny had tried to talk to Sanskar but he paid no attention. Sparsh was left alone. His guide, his father wasn’t there for the PTA meets, nor in those functions where he participated. Sparsh was not happy! He started feeling dejected. Sparsh was close to Rohan after Sanskar. His nanny saw Sanskar’s condition and had informed him about Sparsh. Sparsh went weak in studies as well as in extracurricular!!.. He needed a guide and Sanskar was busy in his own world.

Rohan was busy with his business since last week and had not paid a visit to Sanskar and Sparsh. When nanny informed about Sparsh and Sanskar’s condition he came home. Sanskar was continuously shouting on Sparsh for disturbing him when he was busy drinking in his study. No doubt Sparsh was hurt but he had denied to cry. He managed to carry a drunk Sanskar from couch to the adjacent bed with the help of his nanny, undo his shoes and cover him up with a comforter. Rohan’s eyes welled as his eyes witnessed the pain both are going through!!..

The entire thing happened in front of him and he could do nothing!!.. In some or the other way he too was responsible for Sparsh and Sanskar. He was the one who encouraged Sanskar. He had time but he didn’t stop neither Kavita nor Sanskar. He was guilty too. But this time he wanted Sanskar to be bold and strong for Sparsh. He had no fault in this!!.. He didn’t even had the capability to understand and judge what’s good and what’s bad!!.. Sparsh shouldn’t be affected!!..

A week passed by and Sanskar was called by Sparsh’s Principal speaking about his state. Sanskar had denied to come and had shouted on Sparsh for his poor response in academics. He had blamed the kid not watching his condition, not analysing his situation!!.. When he shared this to nanny, nanny informed Rohan. Rohan went in place of Sanskar stating that Sanskar is out of station.

Here Sanskar was furious knowing Rohan went in place of him. Rohan too was furious when he came to know about Sanskar’s carelessness. He had thought after Sanskar coming out of the trauma he’ll be okay! But he got to know how wrong he was!!.. When Rohan and Sparsh entered Sanskar’s place. Sanskar should his anger which made him lose the thing that was only his…

“Rohan, how dare you take my place? How dare you go to Sparsh’s school stating I’m out of station?” he spoke coming closer.

“What would have I done then? You were busy with your work” Rohan pointed out his bottles he had been drinking.

“Rohan shut up! Nonsense! You aren’t his father and don’t try to be! He’s my son and I’ll choose the best for him!!.. Sparsh go to your room”

“Yes Sparsh! Go pack your stuffs! We’re leaving!” Rohan spoke, Sanskar was shocked.

“Sparsh is my son he’ll be with me and who are you? Who are you to him that he’ll listen to you?” Sanskar spoke in a insulting tone “A mere employee of mine. You can never afford him a life that I can”

“May be I can’t afford him a life of money but I can afford him a life of peace which he doesn’t get here with a drunkard”

Sanskar pushed him down on the floor. Rohan and Sanskar started fighting. There was no one to stop it and Sparsh was already scared of Sanskar’s behavior, he started crying. Rohan tried taking Rohan but Sanskar had hit him with a vase he found nearby. Rohan started bleeding. It was then Sanskar came in his senses. But it was too late!!..

When the ambulance arrived Rohan was taken and Sparsh was crying there bitterly. After 12 hours Sanskar was taken in custody and Rohan went into coma. It’s just one mistake that led into thousands of sins… It’s just not only Sanskar who’s suffering but also the innocent soul who had done nothing but had been bearing so much!!.. Sparsh was taken to his Nanny’s home after some hours. His nanny loved him. She had no one and Sparsh fulfilled her loneliness!!.. It was hard managing Sparsh who often asked about Sanskar.

When Sanskar came sound, he had analysed the situation and he cried out but certain mistakes aren’t reversible!!.. So is Sanskar’s!!.. He had to spent 5 years in jail for the mistakes he committed…
There was nothing more left for Sanskar, he lost his everything, his status, his friend, his well wishers and his most dearest son!!.. Grief is not as heavy as guilt, but it takes more away from you. Sanskar’s guilt turned into grief which made his life worse!!..

Maybe there’s more we all could have done, but we just have to let the guilt remind us to do better next time!!.. But Sanskar didn’t take the chance he stayed in his guilty past and losed everything which had been his!!.. Now at this moment he could do nothing but repent at his loss!!..

“I am not the one you should have chosen Kavita! I’m not the right person! You were wrong, how could you trust a person like me??..” he cried remembering Sparsh.


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  1. Anie

    i just joined telly updates 3…4
    days back n read ur ff. Its superb

    1. Anisha

      Thank you ??

  2. Abdul hafiz (Uma)

    Tch tch tch, poor sanky,but he deserve it *evil smile*. Awsm dear… Keep writing like this……..
    Take care
    Keep smiling?
    See you in October.Bye???

    1. Anisha

      Ok! Tata will miss you ??
      Thank you ??

  3. Rekha

    Nice…!!and Emotional…!!

    1. Anisha

      Thank you ??

  4. OMG…I feel sad for sparsh….poor baby…emotional update

    1. Anisha

      Thank you ?

  5. I think when swasan loved each other, they were quite immature as you stated they were quite 18-21 years old and they were also not living with family, so when couple dont spend enough time with each other distractions are always possible same happened with sanskar. There was nobody in sanskar and swara’s life who can teach them what is good or what is bad during their married life becoz family help in those things alot dear. So seeing the circumstances its obviously that kavita was giving her full time to sanskar so he was completly attracted towards her which swara was not able to give her thats y it is always said married couple always spend alot of time together. So we guys cant say its whole mistake is of sanskar or swara or kavita (as she loved him after knowing he is married) . True lovers can always reamin happy with each other after facing a lot of diffculties and mistakes (thats y it is said love is blind becoz it sees no mistakes nothing only the love towards the person)
    And i think in your fanfiction there is no love between swara and sanskar it was just an attraction of teenage age

    1. Anisha

      Great! It’s quite true! And I agree with you! That’s what I was trying to say.. But still SwaSan relationship isn’t about lust. It’s not completely love as well

      1. Srry to say guys but i think sanskar is punished more than wat he deserved, swara was eventually having a great support even after getting divorse from sanskar either from her family or laksh family but i find out during the whole sanskar is not having anyone. People looses trust but it is showing that he has no right to live again thats really bad, okay swara can’t forgive him but it doesn’t mean others can’t love him.

    2. Hey dr I agree with u in this

    3. Anisha

      Swasan it’s not like that! Swara had support but a life partner is the biggest support! But she was left alone… Sanskar was with Kavita then enjoying

      Consequences of bad deeds and cheating. Neglecting love for some moments of lust. Hurting the person who left whole world only to be with u.

      1. Still yaar i dont agree to living lonliness is already a great punishment which sanskar get more than enough, cheating a wife is really sin but wat we can say when youngester take their decision own their own with family concent they have face it. And it is always said the person who realises its mistake is greatest thing. Which sanskar realised even repent for it. I think this you have shown is unfair to him. If she doesnt get a life partner happiness same goes with sanskar. And dear everything depend on realisation of mistake then everyone can be forgiven. Love rule says love someone with all flaws otherwise there is no love. Which i find in both cases of character

  6. Mica

    uuugghhhhh… made me hate sanskar more!!!!!!
    what kind of repentance to be drunkard ….. how selfish he is..
    “I am not the one you should have chosen Kavita! I’m not the right person! You were wrong, how could you trust a person like me??..” he cried remembering Sparsh.”
    Omg,,.. you are his father sanskar !!! who should has responsibility to sparsh than his own father ???? you made him with full of lust to her mother.. omg….
    maybe swara can forgive him by give him a favor to bring sanskar out of his problem,..
    but just it, nothing more..
    swara love can bring Sanskar back, but Swara’s RESPECT feeling to Varun made her to live happily with him…

    1. Anisha

      Thank you ??
      Micz! ?

  7. Ani really posses off with sanskar character still he bothered about promises to kavita and what about swara how can he ??kavita and sanskar equally responsible for this mess kavita got what she deserved and sanskar getting how can a girl whatever may be her situation shouldn’t enter into a married man’s life that too awareness of that fact

    1. Anisha

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  8. Sanskar has been disgusting he destroyed every life that came nearby but it was Rohan who started this I hate that guy for his so-called sister he let other girls house destroyed. Rohan, Kavita Sanskar none of them deserve forgiveness. they all were guilty they all should rot. Kavita escaped that hell by dying. but that child had no fault it was sad to see him like this it was his parents who deserve this hell not that soul

    1. Anisha

      Thank you ?
      You’re correct!

  9. Am feeling bad for sparsh…only sparsh… Not for sanskar n rohan…they deserve it…

    1. Anisha

      Thank you

  10. Tamanna

    Hey… Really sorry I didn’t commented on previous episode as I read both the chappy now itself…..
    I really feel pity for sanskar but he has dug his own pit in which he is falling….
    Swara is right at her place…. You really made me confused to decide whether swara should return to sanskar or not…..I mean if as you think it as a girl’s POV then swara is absolutely correct but if you see sanskar’s condition then for a moment I feel swara should forgive him and return to him…..
    But As a whole little bit I think swara should be with varun but she should forgive sanskar so that sanskar could move on in his life with sparsh…..

    1. Anisha

      Thank you ??
      I truly agree she should forgive him!!.. And yes No need of sorry! There’s no ‘thank you’ and ‘sorry’ between friends you forgot? You don’t consider me your friend? ??

      1. Tamanna

        Ofcrse dear… We are friends….

  11. Kakali

    Yeah he is a mask man ,,, he is not Sanskar…. u did rit with him….*feeling like crying*
    thnk u Anisha…

    1. Anisha

      Thank you ??
      U started imagining him a mask man? Good??

  12. Awesome
    Sanskar deserved this **evil smile**
    Plz don’t make sparsh like sanskar in future

    1. Anisha

      Thank you

  13. Poor sparsh baby… He is suffering without his any mistake… There is proverb say “parents deeds always falls on their children head”… Samething happened.. Sparsh parents bad deed ,he is suffering.. But am not convinced with sanskar punishment.. Let him live his whole life in this guilt…

    1. Anisha

      Thank you ?

  14. Already I have become soo emotional…after reading his pov’s episodes today…!! Now you increased it much more…in this episode…!!! I am about to cry..seeing sanskar’s condition…!! He will become mad if he continues like this…doing mistakes by mistakes…!!

    Please make him die… if you are not going to make swasan..!! Atleast he will be free from all the guilt and griefs…!! The episode was superb…!! Waiting for next part…!!

    1. Anisha

      Thank you..
      He won’t die So soon??

  15. i think only swara can bring sanskar back to a normal life..she should forgive so dat dey can move on in their life..she has her son and varun and sanskar has his son..so dey have to live their lives for dem..tc..

    1. Anisha

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  16. Arshaanya

    M still unable to undrstnd wat kind of a person he is??
    He shud hve atleast given fathers love care to sparsh ta ki thode shyd kam ho jante huh…bt no hez doing bad wid evry1..
    Sare k sare hi galat h sivaye swarun ?
    Chappy was emotional…
    Feeling so bad for sparsh.. poor baby…
    Finish dis sanky z chptr n show swarun moments?

    1. Anisha

      Yeah! Will show swarun soon…. ??

  17. Sparsh needs swara.I think for sparsh swara is a better option sanskar should control himself and try to sort out issues only after that swara can forgive him

    1. Anisha

      Hmm… That’s true! For now!!..

  18. I know sanskar did wrong but everyone should get a second chance he also needs someone to console him,to guide him,to love him,to bring him out of darkness and only swara can do this

    1. Anisha

      Let’s see

  19. NDSG

    U r doing worng with sanky … I know he did worng but now he realises his mistakes.. Even God will forgive us if we realises our mistakes…

    1. Anisha

      Ndsg! Even I’m forgiving him??
      Even Swara will let the time come….
      Be patient!

      1. NDSG

        ???? sorry if u hurt .. But what to do yrr I love sanky soo much ?

  20. U made swara mahan, u made kavita mahan ,u made VARUN mahan .. Every one is good in this story … Except my sanky … It’s better u kill him in this ff.. I can’t see him in pain … Now I’ll not read any of ur ff..

    1. Anisha

      Not mahan it’s called being good… Swara isn’t mahan that will come up when Sparsh will come in front of her!!.. Sanky? Even I’m a SwaSan fan dear! When everyone bashed me for when I wrote the story…. I said the same even I’m crying to see him like that! But it’s a journey you need to understand! And yes! S if you don’t want to read my stories I won’t force you. But thank you for reading it till now….

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