~~❤Irretrievable Past❤~~

Swara’s POV

I am standing in front of my dressing table and shedding tears. I never thought my life would take such a drastic step. I had never imagined my life without him and now I was going to be married with someone else!!.. Everything little thing is different!

I was born with a silver spoon to a lovely mother and a possessive father and last but not the least a beautiful sweet sister. But no one was here beside me today, to hug me to console me, to help me out of those memories. I cried my heart out looking at my image on the mirror. It reflected my swollen red eyes. Though I tried to hide them it came out. But it doesn’t matter! People would think it’s because of my marriage and my grief of living my parents house.

“Ma please I beg I’ll die without Sanskar! I can’t marry please stop this marriage”, I cried hugging Ma.

“Shona beta! You know your papa na? He won’t agree! And it’s okay you have to get married one day or the other and even Ragini wanted this no? Moreover, it was you who said yes to the marriage. Did you forget??.. Till yesterday you were okay! What happened now??..”, Ma asked.

“Ma try and understand how I mean… How can I marry Varun??.. It would be injustice no? I love someone else and marrying a person whom…. Please Ma do something!!.. I want to see Sanskar!”, I cried again.

“Beta! I can’t help you. I am helpless! But Ha this diary may help! Read it and come down soon. Varun will reach anytime”, Ma said kissing my forehead and left.

I sat there hugging my knees and crying out. No one helped me. None! I gazed at the diary and opened it!

‘To Swara my lil sissy’

“I know you suffered the worst part of your life. But you always have been a brave girl. I know you are self sufficient now. But after a couple of years you will need a person who stands by you. Who gives you a shoulder to cry upon, who will make you smile!!..

You always said that you will stay happy with us. But now no one’s beside you. I also dont know till when I will be alive!!… I am counting my hours leaning onto the hospital bed. But I just want the happiness of my little sister. That’s why I’m writing this to you. I don’t think I have chance to live, I want to see you for the last time but I know I have no more of it!

I don’t want to see you alone in this world. Will you fulfill my wish…??? I know u will say Ansh is with you. But till how long…??? He will also be busy with his life and on seeing u sad and alone my soul won’t be at peace. Do you want to see ur dii sad after death??.. Don’t you want me to live happily over there. If yes then please move on in ur life…

I know this is very tough but try to forget all that as a bad dream and make a new relation with trust and truth as this is what is the basis of a relationship!!…
I hope u will give me the happiness of my sister’s life….
God bless you…”

I closed the diary and found myself and cried again!!!… I stopped thinking everything and sat on bed waiting for someone to take me down in mandap.

I recalled my recent meeting with him and cried again.

**Flashback starts**

Just three days before I met him. He was attending a meeting that was to be held by me!!.. I never expected him here in Banglore. It was quite unexpected. After the award function papa had appointed me all the business works saying that he wants rest!!.. I had obliged!

I attended the meeting and saw him sitting with the other clients as soon as our eyes met. I couldn’t stop but stare at him. Four years!! Four years!! Weren’t short!!.. I had missed him each and every second. I could never deny that fact! I stood there until Varun shaked me and brought me back to reality. I started displaying the charts. I finally finished the meeting and ran out. He followed me and held my wrist and took me to his car. I don’t know why did I agree and followed him without hesitation. I did and we reached a park.

“Sanskar! What’s this? Why did you bring me” he stepped forward and cupped my face “Leave me! What are you doing??..” I yelled.

“Swara! I knew! I knew! You can’t leave me! I knew you are with me and always be!” he said holding his laboured breath and kissing all over my face.

I just pushed him apart and distanced myself.
“What the hell? What do you want now? What’s left?”



“I said you are left to compete me Swara! How can I be without you? You are my soul, my love! The best thing ever happened to me!!.. Swara I still love you! Don’t deny you don’t!!.. Because I know you still love me. Our love….” he stopped when I interrupted.

“You keep your cheesy lines with you Mr. Maheshwari. The day you left me and didn’t even bother to check me our love died that day! We have nothing left in between! Please! Go! And never show your face! When did your love go when you slept with that…. Sl*t….”

“Swara! I did a mistake!…. ”

“It was a sin Mr. Maheshwari… A big SIN”

“Swara! Believe me I still love you!” he said turning my face towards his.

“Believe!” I let out a small laugh and continued “believe! And whom? You?? It’s much better to believe an enemy then to believe you”

“Swara please! Don’t hate me!”

“Who am I hate you?? You are no one to me. So neither do I hate you nor do I love you”

“Swara you’re just angry so….”

“I am not…. You’re no one to me so why should I be angry??..” I spoke walking forward. He kept following me.

“Swara shall we leave??..” I heard Varun asking.

I turned to him.

“Swara please listen” Sanskar spoke.

“She won’t!” Varun said shielding me on his back.

“And who are you to tell me that?” Sanskar asked.

“I’m her fiance” he said and caught my wrist and we drove off to my place.

“How did you…” I spoke to know how he came to know about Sanskar and me.

“I saw your tensed faced” he said looking into my eyes and I saw something different in those eyes. It had ‘fear’ . But for what??..

“I’m sorry” I mumbled an apology.

“Sorry? For what??..” he asked looking at me.

“For coming out with him” I was scared at how he’ll react.

“I don’t mind! As I know you’ll never do the same mistake again”

I stared at him for a while…

“Staring is rude Ms.” he winked at me making me blush….

**Flashback ends**

My trance broke as Ma came. She hugged me and said something, I was least interested in!!..

I reached the mandap and the rituals began. I just followed what Panditji asked to!!.. Varun adorned my neck with the auspicious Mangalsutra and filled my hairline with vermilion. I closed my eyes to feel the new start of a new relationship!!.. I hope I can fulfill my duties as a wife and as a friend and I also would be successful in whatever I do in our future.

I looked up-to Ma-papa, they were in tears. My eyes followed everywhere and I saw him yet again!!.. When will my past leave me??.. ‘My IRRETRIEVABLE Past’

Whom do you want as Varun? Do you want Varun Kapoor as Varun Oberoi or Sanskar Maheshwari?? Come-on comment faster!!.. If you want Ff to continue keep commenting….

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  1. Sanskar maheswari

  2. Arunika

    Swarun ki shadi ho gayii??
    Abb Sanky ka kya hoga? I wanted him 2 do something really big Swara!!!

    1. Anisha

      Let’s see ??

  3. Saanvi

    I already started imagining Varun kapoor as Sanskar Maheshwari and Shravan Reddy as Varun Oberoi while reading your story…
    As usual awesome update 😉 Hope this type of fast updates will be continued from your side 😉

    1. Anisha

      Oh! Good! ??
      Thank you ??
      If you keep commenting like this surely I’ll keep on updating faster as possible!

    2. Mica

      saanviii ! are we twin ? huh! i thought the same as yours.. i want Shravan Reddy..
      i was falling in love with his friendly gesture in MMZ…
      too bad the writer of this Ff never watch MMZ.. it’s her loose *run

      1. Saanvi

        Haha..? That’s always nice to hear someone’s taste matches yours?
        As far as ff’s are concerned Every writer has different choice dear..We can’t ask them to adapt to our choices..So just leave the fact of whom she choses as Varun Oberoi in this ff but we have 100% freedom to imagine our favorite actor in that place?
        Hai na?

    3. Anisha

      Well Mica and Saanvi!!.. Imagine whom ever you want ??
      I never watch serial!!.. I don’t want to get oldie!
      Rather I hate girly stuffs!!.. I hate serials specially sas bahu drama that’s the reason I never watch swaragini… Nowadays…..
      It’s my foolish sissy… Who taught me to watch swaragini…. Forced me in sense??
      And now I write this ??
      Ok let’s see??
      But I’ll be late??
      My exams????

  4. awesome..

    1. Anisha

      Thank you ??

  5. Vk as vo

  6. superb sanksar maheswari

    1. Anisha

      Ok.. ? ? ?

  7. Sanskar maheshwari….awesome episode

    1. Anisha

      Thank You ??

  8. Plz swasan

  9. sanskar kapoor

  10. for ff sanskar maheshwari…..
    but if in real varun oberoi ………….sanskar actually does not deserve a chance………….

    1. Anisha

      Ya!!.. Correct!

  11. amazng..vk as sm..

    1. Anisha

      Thank you ??

  12. Soujanya


    1. Anisha

      Thank you

  13. if groom is not sanskar iam reading this is last

    if deperation is need why u explain there love is pure

    if swara is really want anew life some one then why kavi in sanskar life

    iam ober emotional sorry for ur story pure love never fades I thinked in the end of ur ff

    if swadan not iam not interested in this ff

  14. Ayonti(swasan)

    sanskar maheshwary. nyc

    1. Anisha

      Thank you ??

  15. Vk as varun oberoi

    1. Anisha

      Something different! Nice??

  16. Arshaanya

    Varun kapoor as sanskar maheshwari n want him to suffer…
    Awesome chappy..
    I guess swasan got married plz dun give heart attack? by doing so ?
    N m liking dis new guy varun oberoi?

    1. Anisha

      Me too… ??
      I loveeeeeeeeee…. Varun Oberoi ???

  17. Nice one dear… Loved it update soon ????????

    1. Anisha

      Thank you ??

  18. Rekha

    As usual mind blowing…!!

    1. Anisha

      Thank you ??

  19. Wooowww!!! superb episode… loved it…Ragini’s words were sooo hurt touching…i could felt her worriedness towards Swara through her words… thnk u… hmmmmmm Varun Kapoor as Sanskar n also Varun Kapoor as Varun Oboroi… coz i can’t imagine Swara with anybody else…??

    1. Anisha

      Thank you ???
      Both VK okay fine???

  20. Serena

    I thought to not comment but tera dil rakhne ke liye shakal dikha rhi hu…
    Baaki comment tu fb se copy paste kr le????
    Aur jaldi swasan kr???

    1. Anisha

      Atankwadi hui kamini!! ???
      Dekhte hai…. Next episode ke liye wait kar??

    1. Anisha

      Thank you ?

  21. Really sanskar didn’t deserve swara so plzz u can choose any varun I like both of them.

    1. Anisha

      Thank you ??

  22. Tamanna

    Hey… Nice….
    Vk as SM….

    1. Anisha

      Thank you ?

  23. Please don’t separate swasan

  24. Meghs

    Jaise tere waise karna tu? actually i posting double comment here n fb too so i wanna treat ok ?

    1. Anisha

      Triple treat chahiye? ??
      Chal tu De pehle??
      I heard something something ??
      Love Ya… Keep encouraging

      1. Meghs

        Arre something something kiske saat?

    2. Anisha

      Chekretttttttt ??

  25. Meghs

    Jaise tere man waise karna tu? actually i posting double comment here n fb too so i wanna treat ok ?

  26. Mica

    sanskar Maheswary.. let him got his karma…

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