Chapter 16 – The Final Chapter
It was the day of the engagement, everyone was busy sorting out the final preparations.
I was sat in Yuvani’s room, lost in my thoughts. I was there in body but my mind was elsewhere. People were gathering around me like a swarm of bees, watching me get ready. Ma hadn’t arrived yet, I kept looking through the window waiting for her. I felt restless, I felt a nervous feeling in my stomach. My head was spinning with thoughts of Sayyam. I need my mother, I need her presence.
Suhani Aunty came into the room.
‘Has anyone seen Yuvan?’ She asked, she seemed really worried.
‘He went out for a run early in the morning and hasn’t come back.’
I began to worry. It’s not like Yuvan to disappear like that. He has a set routine, after his morning jog, he would come straight home to have breakfast. Where could he have gone?? I started pacing around the room with worry. Once everyone had left the room, I quietly sneaked out of the house. There was only one place I could think of where he could be. I made my way to the beach.
Once I arrived, I could see Yuvan in the distance. He seemed so lost, sat on the sand staring at the waves.
‘Yuvan?’ I said softly as I approached him.
‘Now I know why you love the beach so much Krish, it’s so calming. It really helps you clear your mind.’ He said gently, his eyes focussed on the gushing sea. I sat down next to him. We sat in silence admiring the sea view.
‘We can’t get engaged Krishna.’ He said quietly. I looked at him confused.
‘Last night at the party you looked so unhappy the whole time. The only time I saw you genuinely happy was when you were with him. That’s when it hit me and I realised..’ He said. He then faced me.
‘Yuvan, I don’t understand..’ I said.
‘You want him.’ He said interrupting me.
‘You want him like I want you. You love him like I love you. The only difference is he loves you back the same way.
Krish, you will always wonder what could have been. I won’t hold you back anymore Krishna, I care for you too much. And I don’t want you to worry about me, I will still be here and we will still be friends.’ He smiled.
‘Come on, Krish, you know I’m right.’ He said calmly.
‘He has probably left for the airport already. You need to go to him.’ He put his hand on my cheek.
‘Yuvan-‘ I said hesitating.
‘Go Krish, go before I change my mind.’ He said smiling at me.
I nodded. The tears were flowing down my face. I knew he was hurting. Deep down he was hurting to let me go.
I got up and I ran. I ran like my life depended on it. For the first time, I felt free and I felt relieved. I ran home to get changed, I was still in my engagement attire.
I ran into the living area to find Ma standing there with a serious expression.
‘Ma, I need to go to the airport.’ I said struggling to catch my breath.
I ran upstairs, quickly got changed and got a taxi to the airport. The roads were so busy, it was peak time. Sayyams flight was due to leave in an hour. I was worried I wouldn’t make it on time. Suddenly, the taxi came to a halt. There was a traffic jam, the road was gridlocked and no cars were moving. If I waited, I would miss the flight. I began to panic.
‘How far is the airport from here?’ I asked the taxi driver.
‘It’s about 10 minutes drive from here.’ He said.
I got out of the taxi and ran to the airport. I ran as fast as I could. I still had half an hour, I didn’t want to risk being late.
I arrived at the airport. I was struggling for breath, exhausted from running. I rushed in and searched everywhere for Sayyam, I couldn’t find him. I began to panic, my heart was racing. What if I missed him??
From a distance, a figure caught my eye. I saw a man fitting Sayyams description wearing a black blazer and blue jeans waiting for the lift. I rushed over. By this time he had entered the lift and the door was about to close. I reached out and put my hand between the doors to stop it from closing. The doors opened and I rushed in. Standing in front of me was Sayyam staring at me in shock. The rest of the lift was empty.
Seeing him, a tingling sensation ran through my body. I was so happy to see him, my heart was racing even faster. I wanted to run up to him and hug him.
‘Krishna, what are you doing here?’ He asked, stunned to see me.
‘I came to see you.’ I stepped towards the lift buttons and pulled the emergency stop button. The lift jerked to a halt and the force pushed me onto him. Our eyes were locked on one another’s.
‘Krishna, what’s going on, why have you stopped the lift?.’ He said.
He walked over to the buttons to start the lift. I quickly ran in front of him to stop him and stood close to him, our faces inches away from each other’s.
‘I want to talk to you.’ I said quietly.
I could see he felt uncomfortable. He turned away with his back facing me and placed his hands in his pockets.
‘Whatever you have got to say, you need to say it quick, I’ve got a plane to catch.’ He said sternly.
I took a deep breath. I gathered the courage to express the feelings in my heart.
‘Do you remember when you first came back to India? We both got stuck in this lift. I felt something for you, I just didn’t realise what it was. I was drawn to you-‘ I said before he interrupted me.
‘Krishna, I need to go, please hurry up.’ He said.
‘I love you!’ I shouted. He turned to face me.
‘What did you say?’ He asked. I stepped towards him.
‘I love you. I love you more than anything. I have known since the moment you kissed me and maybe even before that. All I know is that I don’t want to run away from it anymore, I don’t want to hide.’ I placed my hands on his cheeks and pulled his face towards mine. I gently kissed his lips. He was completely stunned. The smile I have always loved appeared on his face, he seemed so happy. He couldn’t stop smiling. He struggled to get his words out from shock. He leaned his forehead on mine and gently pressed his lips on mine. He hugged me tightly. I closed my eyes and held him tight, I felt so safe in his arms.
‘So, what now?’ He said.
‘I want to come with you.’ I said with a smile.
‘What?’ He asked in shock.
****FLASHBACK**** Earlier in the day at Krishna’s house
I ran into the living area to find Ma standing there with a serious expression.
‘Ma, I need to go to the airport.’ I said trying to catch my breath.
‘I wondered when you would come to your senses.’ She said smiling. I looked at her confused.
‘I could always feel a spark between you and Sayyam and when I saw you both dancing last night, I could see in your eyes how much you both love each other.’ She placed her hands on my cheeks as a smile appeared on my face.
‘Sayyam is perfect for you.’ She said happily.
‘Sayyam came to see me about half an hour ago to say his goodbyes and take my blessings. Krishna, why didn’t you tell me what was going on? I could tell you were unhappy about the engagement but you weren’t telling me anything. Krishna, he told me how much he loves you.’ She said.
‘Ma, I need to stop him from leaving.’
‘Why do you need to stop him?’ She asked. She turned and picked up a suitcase from behind her and placed it in front of me. I was even more confused.
‘Why stop him, when you can go with him?’ She said with a big smile on her face.
‘Ma, what are you saying?’ I was in shock.
‘I can’t go, I can’t leave you.’
‘Krishna, you don’t need to worry about me. I have lots of things to keep me busy. Your happiness is with Sayyam. I know he will look after you and keep you happy. If you’re happy, then I’m happy. I have packed your passport and some of your belongings. Go and live your life Krishna, just make sure you come back once summer is over.’
I couldn’t believe what was happening. I couldn’t control my tears. Ma started to cry too, I hugged her tightly.
‘Now go. You’ve got a plane to catch.’ She kissed my forehead.
‘I love you so much Ma.’
‘I love you too.’
I ran upstairs to get changed and got a taxi to the airport.
‘I want to come with you. I brought my bag. I don’t want to be away from you any longer. I want to be near you all the time. I can’t live without you Sayyam.’ I said.
He couldn’t believe what I just said. He was struggling to speak.
‘That’s if you will take me with you?’ I said with a smile with our arms round each other.
‘I’m not sure…’ He said with a cheeky smile.
‘Maybe this will help make up your mind.’ I said as I pushed him against the lift wall and placed my lips on his.
‘Ok, Ok, you’ve convinced me.’ He said with a big grin.
We hugged each other and felt comfort in each other arms. We didn’t want to let go of each other.
‘We had better get going or we will miss the flight.’ He said as he pushed the emergency button to get the lift moving again.
We held hands as we made our way through the airport and boarded the plane.
As we took our seats, I looked through the plane window watching the sun fall below the horizon. The sky was a beautiful blend of pink and orange. Like the beautiful sunset, a chapter of our life was ending and the next chapter of our life was beginning. Being with Sayyam felt so right, I couldn’t be happier.
Visions of how our relationship developed ran through my mind. At first, I didn’t like him, I found him arrogant, but I felt a spark between us. Once I got to know him and digged under the cold surface, I found an attractive and captivating personality. Like a magnetic force I was drawn to him, I couldn’t keep away. Like a storm he took me by surprise, kissing me and forcing me to bring these underlying, unexplained feelings to the surface. Forcing me to confront why I was so affected by his kiss.
The feelings developed and grew stronger and too powerful to handle. I responded to these uncontrollable feelings. He completely took my breath away, his every touch was spine-tingling and made me feel alive. I would find myself yearning for him more and more.
I searched in my dreams for my perfect man and now I have found him. It’s true what they say, you find love in the most unexpected places, he was the one person I didn’t think I would ever fall for. He has filled the void in my heart. My heart is now complete.
I looked at him with a smile and kissed him on his lips. I linked my arm with his and rest my head on his shoulder. My heart felt content. I will never let go of him again.
As the plane set off into the beautiful orange skies, I realised this is it, this is real. I’m starting a new life with the man I love, my dream guy, my one and only TRUE LOVE…
That’s it! The FF is over. I really hope you all liked the ending. I wanted to show them going off into the sunset together to start a new life.
Thank you to you all for taking the time to read and follow my FF, it’s the comments and likes that kept me going. I always wanted an intense love story for Kriyam in SSEL but we didn’t get this, so that’s why is started this FF. My first ever FF. Honestly, I have loved writing this story, I felt emotional once I had finished.
I hope you have all enjoyed the FF. Please let me know what you thought of the final chapter. Can I also ask you all a couple of other questions:
* What was your favourite chapter and why?
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