The Divorce and the Diary !!
Karthik stared out of the window of his bedroom watching vacantly at the heavy downpour outside. The storm outside was nothing compared to the storm raging within his body, mind, and soul.
The divorce papers had finally been made and delivered. He did not know why his hands shook as he leafed through them. A strange shiver ran down his spine and he felt cold sweat break out from his tensed brow. Regaining his haughty resolve, Karthik marched resolutely to her bedroom, divorce papers in his hand.
He was desperate to know what would she do ?!! Will she sign it ?!! Will she not sign it ?!!
She was sitting on the bed in a pink T-shirt and plain white shots. This was one of her night wears. It indicated that she had not gone to the workshop today, nor had she bathed. The sun’s rays from the window gently touched her hair and gave it a soft brown hue. Her beautiful face had its usual pink glow.
No one had moved him like she did. No one had mesmerized him like she did. Aware of what he was about to do, Karthik stood quietly for a while , staring at her as she wrote something in a diary unaware of him. His eyes and his mind hungrily took in and memorized every detail of her appearance as if those details were going to be used as life support later on. Then he took a deep breath and started to walk towards her.
Naira heard his footsteps. She stopped writing and stood up as if understanding that something of importance was about to take place.
“ I need to talk to you.”, Karthik said, sliding his gaze all over her face.
“What ?!!”, Naira aked, her voice deprived of any emotion.
“You know why I had married you. Also I had stated in the contract that you would only have to live with me until the land comes under my possession”, Karthik started explaining, when Naira cut him off.
“ I already know that.What’s new ?!!”, She asked looking him in the eye.
Karthik was taken aback by her blunt question. It threw him off. Regaining his composure, he continued.
“ The land has been transferred under my name. The divorce papers have been prepared. They need our signature. Once signed, they will be processed and soon our divorce will be final. I will be free of this meaningless marriage and you will be free to do what you please. Also you would get your own place for you dance academy as per the contract. Here are the papers.” Karthik said trying to read her expressions. He wanted to know what was she thinking exactly.
He handed the papers to her. She stared at him as she took the papers from him. Her eyes were blank but her lips quivered. That gave him an urge to kiss them which in turn infuriated him. She doesn’t love you, Idiot, was all that his mind shouted.
Naira stared at the papers in her hands. Karthik’s heart beat grew faster with every passing second. But then she had started signing on the papers. His jaw dropped. He felt a sense of panic rising up in his chest.
“What the heck is she doing !! Why is she signing the paper so easily ?!! Why didn’t she cry or show sorrow. Does she feel nothing for me ?!! How is this possible ?!!” Was what his mind shouted.
Outwardly, he just watched her sign the papers stunned into disbelief. Eventually, she took his left hand with her right hand and turned his palm upwards. Her touch sent a hot flush through his entire body. Then she slammed the papers in his hands and walked out of the room.
For few minutes, Karthik stood motionless trying to grasp the full meaning of what had just taken place.
One thing was clear now, she clearly didn’t love him. Else why would she sign on the papers ?!! His love was impeccable. He would never reach out to her now.
If they didn’t meet, the challenges, the fights, the makeups, the thank yous & sorrys, if they had’nt come from fighting against each other to fighting for each other, it would have been better. Even after she broke his trust, He wanted to hurt her for hurting him, but it pained him more.
Karthik came out from his trance, and looked around for her. She was not there, maybe she didn’t want to see anymore of him. Sighing his eyes moved to the bed, there was a dairy over it, the one she had been writting in, he opened it reluctantly.
Every time we were together, we fought. But even fighting with him was fun. He cared for me, when I was in trouble. He got affected when I was hurt, I too felt the same.
He was my dream catcher, keeping all my nightmares at bay. He used to cuddle me in the night, and I felt contended in his arms. There was no other safest place for me to be.
He had also made me confident and stronger. He gave me the push that I needed to achieve my dreams. He didn’t abandon me like I had been since my childhood, instead he always had my back and supported me in whatever I did.
But then when he did so much for me, he also ruined it at the same time. He had been soft and sweet to me since the last few days but then he had suddenly turned cold to me. I couldn’t love him, he didn’t deserve it. But I had deeply and gradually fallen for ‘him’.
I had suffered all my life, the glimpses of my childhood, my dad beating me and my mumma. Scaring the hell out of me, were still embeded in my heart as well as my mind. They were my scars. But he was like a remedy for them.
I know, there will be no ‘us’.
I was going to confess my feelings to him yesterday but he backed off from me as if burned. That blew me off. He didn’t want me. He didn’t love me. I meant nothing to him…..
Karthik read the whole dairy again & again to make sense of it, was he just hallucinating ?!!
Karthik closed the dairy with a thud, he couldn’t come out of all that just happened. She had openly confessed her love for him, detailed her sufferings, the extend of hurt he had caused her.
He again looked at the divorce papers on which she had SIGNED. He felt like a complete looser. He had again trusted the wrong person and doubted on her . He had hurt her all over again.
Karthik fell on his knees as if lifeless. All the accusations hurled at Naira by him revolved in front of his eyes like a horror movie and he felt like his brain was going to bust a nerve.
Then he rushed to find her in the mansion. He looked for her frantically. He started searching the mansion shouting “Naira !! Naira !!”
She was no where in the mansion, all of her other things were still there. But Naira was nowhere to be found.
His love, His babe, his life had left him. All he was left with were those memories of hers he had captured and they were the only life support he had.
Precap : One year Later. Naira’s POV.
So she has left him because she thinks that he would never trust her completely. Karthik has also realised his mistake so don’t worry he will soon get her back and win her over.
The next Chapter will have a leap of one year and also how Karthik is copping up with Naira’s absence and what was Naira feeling when all of this happened.
Just one more Chapter to go and then Kaira would meet again and Karthik will ask for fogiveness and a second chance. What do you think will Naira do ?!!
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