I wish she will be mine !!
28 August 2016
I have realized that I am nothing without her. She gives me meaning. Life’s worthless without her and I want my life back.
I read the note again today. It’s been too long that I have read it and abided by it. But it’s time I went against it. Some things need to go my way. She needs to know what I feel for her. Things have to change, for the better, and they have to go in the direction in
which I want them to go.
Anushka will have to listen this time. I will not let her be stupid any more. I read the note for the last time today and tore it off. Not that it helps because I know it by heart.
I have been a coward for too long. It’s got to change. I have to disregard the note. It means nothing to me. I can’t let my love die like this. But the note…….
I am sure you will be angry when you read this and I agree that it is justified. There are a lot of mistakes I have done in my life, but I have never hurt people who cared about me.
My parents, my friends, my sisters, brothers and you. I have managed to do that this time. I know what I have been doing over the last few days is unpardonable and I hope you find it in your heart to forgive me some day.
I am ashamed that I dragged you with me to Bangalore, because I wanted to be with Ranbir and promptly forgot all about you. I have made mistakes but none as big as this. I have failed you, and I am sorry.
There is not much love left in my heart, but if there was, I would have given it all to you. It’s been only a few months that I have known you, but you have meant more to me than anyone else.
While you were always there to guide me, scold me and tell me right from wrong, all I did was to give you pain. I don’t deserve you.
Ever since I have been shifted to rehabilitation, I can’t help but think of all the pain I have brought to you and my parents. Mom and Dad have no choice but to live with their degenerate daughter, but spare yourself the trauma.
You need to leave me. I can’t bear to see you any more. I won’t be able to.
Yesterday, when you came to see me, something inside me wanted to die. I wanted
to slit my wrists and end my worthless life. If you stay, you will be a constant reminder of my mistakes in life and I can’t take any more of it.
If you ever considered me a friend, and I know you did, I need just one favour from you. Save me. Please go away and never come back.
It’s my last wish from you. Please don’t make it more difficult for me than it already is. Please know that you hold a very special place in my heart and it will always be that way.
Try to forgive me. I won’t blame you if you don’t. Best of luck for your life. I love you.
I wish and I will see her some day.
And she will be mine.
I will make it happen.
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