Hello everyone.I am Pooma.I am a fan of shivika.I am presenting an os below about anika’s feeling when shivaay threw her out of oberoi mansion.
I know that no one will wish to read their seperation track but i had this idea long time back.but could not pen it down. so i present it below.
When shivaay threw me out,I went blanck.i could see the ocean of emotins rising in his deep blue orb s. I could not see his condition. He just closed the door .I was totally shattered .I did not know what was his eyes was trying to say me. I saw the great wall of shivaaybreaking.
AFTER THREE MONTHS…..
WHEN I SAWW SHIVAAY,I COULD NOT MEET HIS EYES
WHEN YOU SEE A PERSON AFTER HIS SEPERATION FROM HIS SOUL,(A LOVED ONE) YOU COULD SEE TE EMPTINESS AND AND AN UNNAMED EMOTION WHICH HAS THE PAIN,HATRED,LOVE,ANGER AND MANY MORE.
I realized that he was tadibaaz SSO. He was pale. I had not seet his side of him.
AFTER KNOWING SHIVAAY”S CONDITION AFTER I LEFT HIM……
I realize what big blunder I had done. I left shivaay only because he should never know the truth. Guilt struck me hard.
GUILT IS SUCH A FEELING THAT STINGS YOU THAT MAKES YOU REALISE WHAT YOU HAD DONE IN THE PAST.IT MAKES YOU FEEL DISGUSTED FOR HURTING YOUR LOVED ONE..THAT FEEL WILL TEAR YOU APART.
I understood what I had done. i despise myself for such a decision.thinking of keeping the truth away from him, itore him apart from killing meinside.these three months were the darkest of y love.i felt choking when om and rudy told about shivaay’s condition.
A LITTLE ERROR MAY LEAD TO A GREATER LOSS WHAY IS IRREPARABLE BUT LEAVES A DEEP SCAR IN THE HEART THAT DOES NOT HEAL SO SON.
I will bring the old SSO back and it’s a promise.
WHEN SHIVAAY PROPOSED ME..
I was on cloud nine.he loved me and I know it but hearing the words to me..i felt that I had got everything in this universe.i felt past, present and future standing smiling at e showing me my shivaay who is my everything.I woud die whole heartedly now.but leaving shivaay is impossible.I WILL NEVER LEAVE HIM FOREVER.
it was a mere attempt of bringing anika’s thought.i m sry if u find it boring.please leave your comments.