ISHKARA FF : MY HEART’S DESIRE { PART 11 BY RENIMA }

Hello ishqies…how are you all ? A big sorry to kavya, samm,kehkasha and luna for not commenting on your fanfictions…..As some complications are running right now in my life..…..mostly I will not go through tu regularly…..So I missed your brilliant works…..Guys….a request….when you will post your fan fictions please send the links through pm and it will be comfortable for me to read well and comment when I will get time….A big thanks to all readers and silent readers who show the patience to comment and read my ff…… And I am posting 11th part…

Scene- 27 [Ishana’s house] {continuation from part 10}
{Ishkara share an eyelock…..}
Ishana : Omkara……may be your heart knows it……
Omkara : Do you think so ?

Ishana : I don’t know……but ….I can find your heart’s truth in your eyes…..And…..when I see t tears in your eyes…..I can feel your inner pain…..which is ……hidden in your heart……Your heart which is breaking day by day into pieces…….and you are unable to replace them…… Because when heart is broken…….we just tries to wear a smiling face over it and we cheats our own heart’s desire……{she gets emotional and stares omkara with wet eyes and pretends to smile}
Omkara : Ishana…..if you can witness my heart’s truth…….if you are able to see my pain…..and if you can feel my heart has broken…..then……just tell me what my heart says……
Ishana : How can I know….omkara…..it’s your heart….and you have limited my space upto the bond of pain…..only…….Beyond it……omkara…….I…. have no right to see what omkara feels…….because…..am supposed to burn the desire……from my heart….And omkara……when am unable to do that…you are asking me to tell what your heart feels….. Iam not able to see it as my heart is already broken…….
Omkara : Please……Ishana……Just tell me how can I know it ?

Ishana : Ask to your heart……omkara….
Omkara : I will ask….and if it will not give the answer…….then……

Ishana :{shocked} Omkara!!!!…..
Omkara : What is right….what is wrong….I don’t know…..And am confused as even I feels the same which you feels for me……And …..whatever I know…..it’s nothing……pain……which am able to see in your eyes…….And I just want to tell you that am always with you in your pain….and whenever you are in pain……my arms are ready to hold you…..my hand are ready to wipe out your tears…….and ……{he is unable to complete his words as his eyes were full-fledged in tears…..}

Ishana : {rushes to him and wipe out his tears] Please…..don’t cry……omkara…am unable to see tears…..as these tears are increasing your pain…… ……..and when you are in pain ….am also in pain…..omkara……am also in pain……..{she stares him with wet eyes}…..omkara…… you are feeling confused and unable to realize and disclose what you feels……But……your eyes are able to convey what you feels……and….whatever I feels……if you will feel the same or not…..doesn’t matter……because I know…..you have a true heart…..and I feel….that…I have a space in that heart……{burst into tears}

Omkara : Ishana{ he hold her hand and places it on his chest} ……You are very special…to me……And I will certainly ask……to my heart……..{few drops of tears from omkara’s eyes falls on her hand}….I will ask…and I will ….{he holds her hand} listen to my heart…..whatever it is……that will be my answer……it’s my promise………{ISHKARA share an emotional eyelock}
Ishana : Am waiting……omkara……{emotional }
Omkara : I have to leave…..but I will kept my promise in mind…..[emotional]
{Omkara stares Ishana and leaves…..Ishana stares him wet eyes}

Scene – 28 { @ Oberoi Mansion- Hall}
[Omkara is back in oberoi mansion and every one welcomes him….Shivaay and rudy makes fun of omkara by taking Ishana’s name…..Mean while Tej is in full anger ]
Tej : Omkara…..what you think of yourself ? Apart from colouring, playing with soil now you have started helping those street people….those wandering drunken man and his looser daughter ?

Omkara ; Mr. Oberoi……mind your words……You don’t have any rights to insult them…..
Tej : Wow !!! My son is standing against me for that beggar……..Mehta…..who once was a land lord …..but has lose everything because of his imbalanced life……

Omkara : Mr.Oberoi……Before you should blame another person’s life……I think you have to make a peep into your own life….You are also not able to balance your relationship with your family…..In fact I want to say that Mehta uncle is far better than you as he has give freedom to chose the right life for his wife by giving divorce….And what about you ? You always treats mom under your feet and you have tied her in a complicated marital relationship only…….But she believes in her true love for her husband and she trusts you @ any cost since she feels that you will also understand her feelings…..But you are unfair to your wife……you have break her trust and you are doing nothing except injustice to my mom……
Tej : Omkara !!!!{shouts]

Omkara ; Why are you shouting…..Mr.Oberoi…just because am telling truth….truth is bitter…..Mr.Oberoi……but no matter how long you can hide it…..one day…….it will be revealed and I always stand for truth…….only…….

Tej : I admit that I have a relationship with Swethlana…..but that was my past and…..about your mom’s feelings……{tejvi share an eyelock}……when some priorities and preferences come to life….it will dominate feelings and emotions…….One should be ready to face it instead of consuming drinks and taking drugs……
Omkara : What are you trying to prove, Mr. Oberoi……..you can see my mom is consuming drinks…..you can see your son is taking drugs……but are you able to see why we are doing it ……won’t you ?…….Of course……you don’t know….because……you never tried to realize what your family needs from you…….{emotional} Mr. Oberoi……..
Jhanvi : Beta…..omkara……

Omkara : Mom…..its better I should keep silence……because I know ……it is rewarding pain for you…….{Omkara leaves the hall in much frustration and goes to his room…Tej and Jhanvi share an eyelock and Tej goes to his room……Jhanvi feels sad…}

Scene- 29 [ @ Omkara’s room]
{Omkara is sitting in a corner of his room and he leaned himself on the wall…..Suddenly some one switch on the lights of his room and it was none other than his brother Shivaay……}
Shivaay : Om…..why are you sitting in floor …….and why all lights are off ?

Omkara : Shivaay……some times darkness matters a lot……and please allow me to spend alone in this darkness……
Shivaay : Fine…..om……But I believe that…..if we are alone also…..we should allow darkness to cross our confusions, sorrows and pains…..If lights are on…then it will remind that we should be brave enough to handle whatever comes across in our life……

Omkara : Shivaay…..may be you are right…..But shivaay…….just think with your heart….are you able to ignore your sorrows and worries ……
Shivaay : That’s why I prefer brain over heart…..because……when things will get more and more complicated…….we should prefer thinking with brain only…….And…..it will show you…..what you have to do…..
Omkara : Shivaay…….do you never felt that…..the decisions which you take with brain may hurt others and yourself also?

Shivaay : Am shivaay singh oberoi….and I always remind this fact whenever I decides a thing……And about other’s feelings…….If I will start bothering about it……then…..my focus will be deviated ….and……
Omkara : {interrupts} You are hurting yourself…..shivaay…….
Shivaay : Listen…..omkara…am a business man……and I have to be practical always……. So I just try to over come that pain….which exists in heart…..

Omkara : Shivaay……it’s not easy …….to over come pain…..may be you can try to ignore pain……you may be able to say …..not a big deal as you are a business man……but shivaay….. tell me honestly…….are you able to sent those pain from your mind?

Shivaay : I will try to place them in unconscious mind only and I will never let my emotions to cross over my decisions….my business……and …….even if I take a wrong decision…..i trust you….om…because…..your truth is able to rectify my mistake…….because you are my best man…..and om…..we are brothers….and among us……we don’t have any secrets……and we can share whatever we feel…..{emotional ….and holds omkara’s hand}

Omkara : I know…..shivaay…..but…some times silence is necessary…….and whatever I did today…….i think I have to be silent from the beginning itself……so that the bitter truth won’t have come out……you know that…..shivaay……..from childhood onwards am witnessing my mom’s pain…….Mr. Oberoi’s misbehavior……. which was raised in medias……and from the depth of my heart…..some times I feel oberois hands are not pure…..for business deals…..stocks…….for competeing with business rivalries……for the reputation of family, businessand status…… oberois are able to finish those people who will cross their path……And Mr. Oberoi…..whenever he talks I will witness some sort of hidden intentions in his eyes…..and am worried for that……

Shivaay : Om…. I think you are thinking too much which is leading you to doubt your own father…..which is not fair…….Bade paapa is a part of our family…….Om…..so just try to accept people with their faults…….its not necessary that…..one should be right always…….

Omkara : May be…..but if a person is not ready to accept faults and rectify mistakes….then it’s not so easy to believe in that person from heart……and shivaay…..you always want everything as perfect in your life…..

Shivaay : Om….. I always demand perfection and it’s upon me and if I find imperfection……in deal….i will make that one as perfect……But when it come to one’s personal life…..then that individual is supposed to make it perfect or not…..and om…..am not able to realize well until some one express their feelings…..you are able to find it from one person’s silence as you are an artist…….but among brothers…..this silence has no space….so when you feel to share …..just talk to me…..om…..as I can’t see my bhai in trouble…….{emotional}

Omkara : Shivaay…….sometimes I have to kept my pains, troubles in my heart itself…… I have to limit whatever I feels upto myself only….because it’s not necessary that always I will get the great wall of shivaay singh oberoi for hanging my pains…….{literally cries}

Shivaay : Om…..there is no limitation…..there is no boundary for this wall……and trust me this wall never let you go down…..my bhai…..
Omkara : Shivaay !!!!! { he literally cries and hugs shivaay}
Shivaay : This wall is weak without you …..om……there is no distance among brothers……{ he touches omkara’s cheeks…….} Take care…..my bhai…..
Omkara : Yes…..
{Shivaay leaves…..}

Scene – 30 { @ Jewellery shop }
{Ridhima and Sidharth visit jewelley shop and sidharth is excited in buying ornaments for ridhima}
Sidharth : How is it ? [shows a necklace to ridhima]
Ridhima : Nice…….
Sidharth : So…..just wear it and show me….ridhima…..really you will look more pretty
Ridhima : Sidharth….I will wear it…..@ wedding……

Sidharth : I know….but I just want to see whether my choice is good or not ?
Ridhima : It’s good…..and sidharth……please….am not interested in wearing it now……
Sidharth : Why…..That means you are just pretending that you are happy …….its ok……you can select whatever you want……

Ridhima : No….sidharth….it’s good…..and better than my selection…..but…..mm…..
Sidharth : What’s your problem ?
Ridhima : Ishana and Om……

Sidharth : So you are feeling jealous to see om with ishana……
Ridhima : Don’t be silly…..sidharth…….
Sidharth : Sorry…I was just kidding …..{he presses his ears and smiles}
Ridhima : Sidharth…..by the way….ishana and om…..when I saw them together……I felt much happy for om……The way om helped ishana…….I mean….it’s so admiring…..won’t you ?
Sidharth : That’s true….and am happy for my sister…..that a gentle man like omkara stand with her when she was in trouble…..

Ridhima : But…..i witness…..some thing else….in om and ishana’s eyes……and am worried for that…..
Sidharth : What are you trying to say ? And what are you able to see in om’s eyes?
Ridhima : Pain….it’s pain….sidharth……and I saw the same pain in ishana’s eyes also and am worried for that pain……
Sidharth : I didn’t get you…ridhima…..

Ridhima : Both of them have suffered much in their lives and both of them are struggling in their lives….And I am worried because within their issues and struggles whether they will be able to convey what they feel for each other ?
Sidharth : Of course they will convey……
Ridhima : Are you sure ?

Sidharth : Ridhima…..{hold her hands} If love is true…then that love itself will unite omkara and ishana…..as the feel of love is very special and when it comes to individuals…..may be it will take time….but if it is true love….then that true love will test you how much you love your partner…….life will bring so many complications, obstacles and challenges for them….But the concern for each other will remain strong and we won’t let our partner to fall down because we love them a lot……..
Ridhima : You are right….sidharth…..if love is true….then certainly it will unite om and ishana……and just they have to wait for the right time and…..when it arrives….they will convey what they feel …….isn’t it ?
{ Sidharth and Ridhima share a romantic eyelock and smile @ each other}
Scene – 29 { @ Ishana’s House…..Late night}

{Ishana tries to feed her dad….}
Paapa : I would like to have food from my daamad’s hand…..
Ishana : Daamad…..
Paapa : Yes…..daamad….omkara…….where is he ?

Ishana : Paapa…..he has gone…..
Paapa : But he promised that he will not leave my daughter’s hand…….and how can he go….
Ishana : Paapa….he has gone to his home…..and I don’t understand why you are behaving so adamant like a small kid ?
Paapa : Think….whatever you want….ishu…..i want to see omkara……just pick the phone and call omkara…..right now…..

Ishana : Paapa…are you mad ? It’s late night…and he might be sleeping…..and you are asking me to call him ?
Paapa : I don’t know why…but beta…..when that guy was with me…..i felt I have regained my strength…….beta…..now am not taking drinks also……{smiles}
Ishana : That’s true…paapa…..am happy that you quitted drinking……

Paapa : Beta….as I promised…..earlier….that if a man will hold my beti’s hand…….then I will stop drinking……I have fulfilled that promise because @ hospital omkara promised me to hold your hand ….Now it’s his turn……
{Ishana is shocked}

Ishana : Paapa…….I think you should take rest…..now……{she is about to leave…..but paapa hold her hands}
Paapa : Ishana….omkara ….he will come or not ?
Ishana : {pretends to be happy with a smile} Mmm…..Yes….paapa…..he will come……tomorrow……morning…….omkara will come……

Paapa : That’s good….Tomorrow’s dawn will complete my heart’s desire…….my dream…..
{He slowly closes his eyes and falls asleep…..Ishana leaves the room and burst into tears…..She was thinking…….”Am sorry paapa……but am helpless……paapa……am unable to break your heart’s desire……Omkara……why you promised ? And what will happen if you will not come tomorrow…..How will I face paapa ? Omkara…….if you are able to feel my pain….then….just come tomorrow……I need you……omkara…….I need you…..}
PRECAP : I DON’T KNOW WHAT I SHOULD WRITE……

10 comments

  1. Jaya

    |Registered Member

    Immense pain….so intense.loved shivkara bond…hated the way tej taunted om. Mr. Mehta’s cute demands 🙂 . May be we cannot decrease, may be we are not able to understand your situation. But always be there for you to support and encourage through comments.

  2. Hasmita Kapoor

    It’s not a good update.. Acc. to certain sources Ishana isn’t coming back.. So this update might be a dream only… Pls give me a good ans to this question that whatsoever update u gave us abt ishqbaaz is true or not.. Because when it doesn’t happen than it disappoints us.. Hope u got it.

    • Renimarenju

      |Author

      I saw it in abp’s news page and i just copy pasted the news in wall….but still nothing is confirmed as neither star plus nor gul khan has confirmed the news of ishana’s re-entry……So it’s not sure……whether it is true or not…….unless and until gulkhan or cv’s will not confirm anything officially ……we can’t believe in whatever news which is coming up with ishkara track…….still i share that news….because i just felt if it really will happen…then in this new year it will be a treat for ishkara fans…..Sorry if i hurt you……And I don’t have any intention to hurt you….dear….. whatever i saw …i just share it…that’s all…….and not a good update….means what….are you telling about my ff……it’s my imagination…….only….if you didn’t like it…then you can criticise it…..no problem…..i hope now the answer is clear

  3. shilpa

    Good episode renima…I feel like u have portrayed ur heart’s pain. Hope ur problems will get solved soon..don’t forget that we all are wig you ..

  4. Kehkasha

    |Registered Member

    Di its splendid and u have potrayed all the emotions here…..
    The convos between Shivkara…..and RiddHarth….amazing..
    And plz don’t be sorry coz this time even I am late in reading and responding…..

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