Forgive me, Please – Episode 9
We both went to restaurant for dinner.
“Wat u prefer to eat?”
“I nvr heard a dish with that name”
She didn’t even smile. I understood that she didn’t had mood to come for dinner. I ordered by myself. I noticed she had very little.
“Are you ok”
“Yes I am” she replied but I found something hidden.
We started to home. On the way she slept leaning on my shoulder. We reached home. I tried waking her up but found her in deep sleep. I lifted her in my arms n took her to room. I removed her jewellery n covered her with blanket.
I nvr saw Sakshi being tired that soon.She is always so active n energetic. But now she is so dull. I think I must take her to hospital tomorrow.
Sakshi woke up n saw herself sleeping in her room.
I didn’t remember me coming to home yesterday. Actually I got into car n then I slept. It means Randhir brought me to room. Though he is trying hard to hate me still he is loving me. I know his rudeness is just an action. But I didn’t deserve his love. I must go away from him.
“Get ready. We are going to hospital” I came out of my thoughts with Randhir’s words
“Hospital?? but why??”
“Nothing. Get ready fast”.
I got ready as soon as possible. He took me to hospital. Doctor called us. Doctor tested me.
“Congratulations Mr. Randhir. Ur wife is conceived. But as u said she is really so weak. I will prescribe few medicines. Use it regularly. But natural diet helps more than medicines. Don’t give her stress.”
“Thank you doctor. Thank u so much. I will take care of her.”
This is really a great news because now this relationship became more strong. I am happy because now she won’t leave me at least for baby.
We reached home n Sakshi went to her room followed by me. I can’t stop myself anymore. I hugged her n kissed her on forehead.
“Thank u Sakshi. You can’t even imagine how happy I am. I love you”
She didn’t say anything. I left her n went to office. Afternoon I returned with fruits n other nutritional foods for her. But shocking me, I saw her with her luggage trying to go. I grabbed her hand n took her to room.
“Where are you going?”
” I am leaving. I didn’t want this child. I want to go for abortion” came the reply from Sakshi shocking me.
I slapped her hard. She fall on bed. I saw bleeding from her mouth. When I heard the news that she is conceived, I thought I shouldn’t hurt her anymore but still she is testing my patience. I went near her n caught her hair.
” Look, u are not allowed to do wat u want. U must follow wat I say. I want our child to be safe. Not opting for abortion, even if anything happens to child by mistake, that will b ur last day. Take care. I don’t care whether u will leave me or die aft giving birth to my child. But till then u must tc of urselves for my child. Got it”
” Who knows whether its ur child or not”
I know this time I really crossed the limit. Now he will kill me for my words.
He came to me. I closed my eyes scaring.
“Open ur eyes”
I opened my eyes.
” You asked who knows whether its my child or not. I know its my child. Its our child. I intentionally tortured u to take revenge but I nvr had doubt on ur character. I didn’t know y u left Ajay. I didn’t know whether u love me or not. But I am sure u respect our marriage. You can nvr do anything wrong aft marriage. I trust u to that extent.”
I didn’t hear anything except the 3 words I trust you. His trust that too aft my betrayal means a lot to me. My eyes filled with tears. I hugged him n rested my head on his chest crying. He didn’t say anything. He caressed my hairs. I cried my heart out. I felt relaxed. I looked into his eyes.
“Can u please give me one last chance to b a loving wife to you. I promise I nvr leave you. Please Randhir”.
Randhir looked me. He left me n went from my room.
He left without listening.
I can nvr forgive u Sakshi. U broken my heart. I can’t leave u. But I can’t love u too. Even if I forgive, I can nvr love u as before. I can’t hate u too. You made my life a hell. I trust ur character. But not ur love.
He took wine bottle n broken it
No I shouldn’t drink. If I lose control on my anger, I may harm her. She is already weak. I shouldn’t hurt her. Watever she had done in the past, now she is carrying my child. I should take care of her.
He sat in the chair n slept. Sakshi came to him n sat on the floor near him keeping her head in his lap.
“I am sorry Randhir. I have done big mistake. But really at that time I didn’t know the value of love. I realised wat is love n ur importance in my life aft leaving u. I thought to come back to u. But I felt I can’t show my face to u. So I didn’t come into ur life aft that. But u searched for me n married me. I know still u love me.But ur anger is dominating it. This child is a new hope in our relationship. Atleast for this child u will tc of me. Before our child comes to this world, I will win ur love. I love you.”
She slept in his lap.
I woke up n surprised to see Sakshi sleeping in my lap. Just then I found she sat on floor. In sleeping posture, she is really so cute. One of the things which I like the most is to admire her beauty. Aft all I can do it because she is my wife. I really wonder still she is a child n now she is going to become a mother for my child.
How hard I try sometimes I can’t control my love for her. I want to b harsh. I want to hate her. But Its the toughest thing in my life to do than anything else. Even now I failed to hate her. Seeing her sleeping in my lap made me to admire her beauty. I bent slowly n kissed her on forehead. She woke up.
“I..I..am sorry. I mean I didn’t want to b alone. So I came to u and….”
I understood she is finding excuse for sleeping in my lap. But I don’t think its necesasary. Because she is my wife. She can come to my room anytime. I saw her eyes which are so red. I think she cried a lot. May b because I didn’t answer her when she asked for forgiveness. Should I trust her? Should I love her one more time? But wat if she brks my heart again?
I kept all my thoughts aside for sometime n lifted her in arms. I took her to room n made her to lie on it.
” Take rest. Now thats wat u need the most” I said
But I know that’s not wat she want. She want love n care from me. I thought to leave the room but she hold my hand.
“Pls don’t go. Sit here”
I unintentionally nodded and sat near her caressing her hairs. She hold my hands tightly.
Aft sometime she slept peacefully. I lied besides her n went into sleep.
Precap: Revelation of Randhir-Sakshi love story n how they got separated. Lets see is his anger justified or she should b forgiven..